Sea Enigma's place

I know I do not usually put these sort of posts unless I really-really needed to rant. It's been a tiring 2 weeks plus pretty eventful in some aspects... some to my dislike. Wushu training has gone up a notch and is practically killing most of us mentally as Master Woo is getting pissed off at us again. We'll be doing a 15minute long performance at an 'Aids Charity Event' in Wangsa Maju FYP (Final Year Project) progress is pretty slow, due to some distractions and such. Even so, alot has been done, though there's more to do. As for Kian... my ex, well... I'm slowly getting over him (though i do miss him every now and then) and lately due to some arrangements and pushing by my brother and a 'good' friend of mine... a new guy is in my life. He's charming, good looking, strong, adorable and pretty much an adventurer in his own way. This guy, apparently is also 3 years younger than me and is my brother's friend. So far it's too soon to know...

Well... Not to bad, It's only been about 2 months since my last post. Needed rejuvenation, relaxation and probably just time off from studying, even if it meant lazing about at home. True I didn't even do much to settle the ideas for my course, but really couldn't do much staying at home where everyone is gloomy, tense and at different brain-wave sync. Already 2 months plus since we moved into the new house and the old house still needs to be cleared out. It's stressful, and makes me wonder why we moved, though the old house was in a slight dis-repair after we've lived there for nearly 18+ years. 3 months since my break up, though I still miss him, I'm slowly moving on. But the set back would be, my brain feels dead, though I manja with or manjakan my guy friends and the new ones I make, I seem to not react to them as easily as before. As in, normally I fall for guys very easily, lately, it's quite the opposite. Either I'm just picky or still try...

It's been half a year since I posted here. Too many things happening, Friend's convocation, me failing my Final Year Project, not doing well in Wushu,Singing and pretty much everything. Other than that, I'm single again and missing him though it was for the best for both of us and our families. I'm crying again, mostly from confusion, despair and uncertainty. All I ever wanted was to be a singer, a performer and someone that is loved because I make them happy. But now, I can't seem to do that. I can't even make myself happy. I'm lost once more, like always. I love to sing, but many say I'm not good enough and am too emotional. Always being compared to my younger sister because she's more mature, more beautiful and can do most of the things I wanna do better. Especially singing. They tell me to accept it and to stop trying. Why? Just because it's more practical and the most grown-up thing to do? No way!!!! They tell me to grow up t...