Selamat Hari Raya to all ^_^ (Eve of Raya)

(my 2 latest drawings *points up*)



Well... the Fasting month of Ramadan is coming to a close tomorrow (aka today as it's already 12am). I'd say finally as it has been very tiring and nerve-wrecking at best this year. There were definitely many factors involved and none were helping as every day I was so tired, so tired to the point of crying. Not to say though that none of my other family members weren't tired either.It's practically normal to be honest.

I'm honestly glad it's over, though of course God's many trials will still be there nonetheless.

This year, like all years, traditionally there will be an open house conducted at both my grandmothers' homes where all of us family members will get together. Though over the years, as we've all gotten older and some of my ever-doting cousins have families of their own, while some have moved on and live elsewhere, I daresay, for the passed 8 years, Raya seems lonely. But that is to be expected as you grow older, your family has grown and there are more in-laws to visit, too many to keep track of in so little time in the day.

Though one thing has changed this year. As I am working now, though the pay is menial in comparison to what my older cousins are earning, I would be giving 'Duit Raya' (money in green packets) this year. It won't be much but for once I'll be giving Raya packets to my many nieces and nephews as well as my younger cousins.

Other than that, things are a little strained between me and my new boyfriend. We've been together in this long distance relationship for nearly 6 months now and yet somehow I feel as if we don't really communicate much anymore. It was the same when I was with my ex, Kian, but maybe I'm just paranoid. For all I know it's nothing. Plus, he is 'Sephiroth' in the 'Final Fantasy Convergence Forum' ( ).

I really miss him though I practically see him online all the time. Yet, maybe it's because we've never met face to face nor have we ever done a web cam chat, I'm feeling a little neglected or just being selfish that I want him to be with me always. Though that's practically unfair of me, but in a way, it may mean that I am jealous that he's spending more time in his 'role' in the Role-playing sessions in the forum and that he's spending more time with everyone else than with me.

I shouldn't feel this way, especially since Raya is this Friday and I should be happy as I look forward to Raya every year. Plus I haven't even started baking yet >.< but am getting to it. I'm gonna see if I can break my record by baking more than 8 cakes, lots of brownies and chocolate chip + m&m cookies (which I haven't done since I was 16). There's so much I wanna do and so little time, but I can do it,I'm sure I can.

That should be all for now, my eyes are tired from all the crying done today and the fact that I am exhausted from my sister's party the day before. Below are some photos my dad took yesterday at the party :
















Anyway, with that done...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada para Muslimin dan Musliman :D Maaf Zahir dan Batin !!!!!

Have a Great Raya this year everyone !!!!