My Goals and Dreams - What do I do?

Well, it's nearing my last 2 semesters of University life and I still haven't decided what I really want out of life. Do I wanna devote my self into performing arts full-time or give it up to do finish what I started with Digital Media?

I don't know. Not anymore.
But one thing does still stand, I still want to be a singer and martial artist.
I wish to train harder in Wushu and swimming. Though at the same time, I wish to juggle video making, acting, joining the Young KL Singers again and much more.

For some odd reason, my motivation is low and am definitely addicted to Perfect World online and just lazing about.
All my inspiration blocked and am not sure how to unblock it.

Fear of being laughed at, left alone and disrespected.
Indecisiveness and not being able to fend for myself.
Looks like I spent too long a time at home and it's driving me crazy.

Why am I always crying?
At loss at what I want to do and what I can do.
Thinking too much and sensitive to what others say and do.

Too many household problems that I don't even know where to start and some I don't
think I should reveal, online like this.

I guess the only things I can do at the moment are :
- Practice Wushu harder
- Read more
- Analyse my characters in Perfect World to apply in the D&D sessions
- Write
- Try to draw and make more videos
- Talk to my boyfriend about this

I guess that's all,
To those who stop by and read, thanx for reading

Oyasum-nasai
Good Night
Selamat Malam

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