Again as usual, I now post some info of the life I've been living for the past month or so. Well one event that would interest everyone would of course be the Bon Odori event and trip to Port Klang for a group assignment for my course. The trip for the project was interesting to say the least and though I may not be the best group mate Ijust hope my attitude would be better soon. Anyway, it should turn out well, but still early to say. Next would be the Bon Odori event 2 weeks ago. I went with the EMINA club at MMU Cyber and was glad I went as well as can't believe what I've been missing before. Had loads of fun and ate my fill :) :D . There were lots of food stalls and such till I couldn't choose which I liked better. Managed to eat some sushi, octopus balls , tried a bit of my friend's curry and japanese ice ^_^ (yummy) . Besides that, joined in the traditional dances and met my DA friends there. That's all to report for now, getting blurer and blurer...
It certainly has been some time since I've posted here. Too long in fact. My senses are certainly numb and blur, especially when I'm trying to fight for what I want. But now given the chance to take it, why does it somehow feel wrong? It's like it may not really be the thing I really want. That scares me to tears T_T I honestly have no clue on how to react on what my parents want me to do. True that the entertainment business isn't really that big in Malaysia now and that the competition is high, but as terrified as I am, it's what I want to do. Either that, I'm just trying to live a fantasy which may not even come true (or will just not be something I would see through or it's something I won't expect) . Now I'm finding myself wondering why exactly do I want to be a performer. Is it because it allows me to much more than I am (even if my face lacks expression, I tend to blur out and get stiff with nervousness)? I do admit I enjoy performing, and ...
At last, though there had been conflict after conflict at home, I am now starting my new course in Communication and Cultural Studies (creative writing).It may be just for one year but it makes all the difference. I'm away from my home in Malaysia and am back in a dorm in Bentley, Australia. True that I'm 'suffering' from the 1st time jitters, being away from my comfort zone in Kuala Lumpur and being in a whole new environment. It will pass nonetheless. I am glad to be out of the house, yet, there are so many whom I miss dearly. Made some new friends and yet I'm very lonely to the extent of tears. It has only been 2 weeks since I set foot in my new life as a student at Curtin University, Bentley, Australia. Things are very new and almost 'alien' to my senses. There are so many things that I want to do and so little time. I wish to further my participation in Martial Arts, improve in my performance skills and gain the confidence I never though possible,...
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