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Yeah, 3 or more months have gone by and so far, I don't think I've fulfilled any of my new years resolutions T_T Even so, I'll keep on trying as if I want to succeed I'll have to keep going and not give up. Sure... I seem to be sacrificing alot of my assignment time for other things, but I'm trying to not complain and to live with it. I've even started taking in requests from people to draw and paint for them (well one anyway). Other than that, I have a lot of plans for this year and I hope I can fulfill them before the year on the month is through. So far, despite the fact that I hardly ever paint lately, but I like the results of my artworks at the end of the day. Though my sister says otherwise and prefers my shading technique to my painting. But I won't complain as other people have their own preferences on things. Anyway, above would be the paintings which I have done so far this year and hopefully will do more soon. Other than that, I've...

It most definitely has been a long time since I posted here. Too long in fact and som much has happened. - moved from Kak Fung Yen's apartment to Yong's and Sharil's. - had more assignments to deal with - MMU Wushu Intergration Day is coming soon - There's the Hou Yuan Jia Wushu dance still in commence - There's the Swim Club - 'Swimming Carnival' (hopefully) - Have Dungeons and Dragons RPG sessions and Utpoia in my free time now Basically there's alot going on and I'm eitherl azing about or just not doing anything about what i need to do. It has to change soon or I won't be fulfilling any of my New Year's resolutions or keeping to my promise to my aunt (Mak Enda). Whatever it is, I have to start soon and get rid of my fears. I guess that's all for now. C ya soon.

Well looks like an 'interesting' day today, despite the temper tantrums and lack of sleep. But the lack of sleep was worth it as I managed to finish a great painting of Batman for my dad's birthday today (actually yesterday looking at the time) 11/10/1959. Sadly can't show it as my PC monitor hasn't come back yet from my mom's colleague. Had some problems with it, and it may have short-fused back in Cyber. but once it comes back will be sure to post it along with a few more artworks hopefully. Besides that, just got to know that on the same day, it's also my Wushu Master's birthday, too :0 Looks like one more gift art about to be popped into the oven. Well... I think that's all and I may be online for a while. To all who's birthday is the 11th of october, I wish you all a HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!! and good night.

Well it's that time of year again and we're in the middle of the fasting month. Besides that, exams are over and now it's the holidays :w00t: . Though... I can't seem to understand why I don't feel any difference unless it's just me. The next sem will be starting soon, more or less within a month and like my adoptive brothers and sisters told me, time to start anew. Even if it does take time to achieve ^^; ;P . Well, was glad that I went to my grandmother's Kenduri yesterday as was glad to be around family again :D . Have been away from them for quite a while, but not as bad as my cousin in New Zealand though . As for my plans for this holidays... I've not fully decided yet, but... this would be a vague list of what I might do: 1. Visit my 'sister' in Seremban (haven't seen her in years ^^; ) 2. Spend time with my family members 3. Try to train my Wushu ( stamina and muscle building along with smoothening my routines) 4. Practice some drawing...

ok... let me see... Bangkok, Class and Combined training Journal Entry: Wed Aug 16, 2006, 3:43 AM Right... Latest events of My life: - Trip for 2 nights in Bangkok with mom: Was in Bangkok for about from wednesday to friday last week with my mom. We went in the morning to the Low Cost Carrier Terminal (LCCT) by bus and from there we took an Air Asia flight to Bangkok. Once in Bangkok, we checked into the 'Ambassador Hotel'. The room we stayed in was cozy, despite the slight tinge of old about it as we stayed in the old wing. Being the first day and first time i was there, we , qoute from my mom went "...shooopping..." . Went to many interesting places while I was there and even went for foot and thai massages. Places I went and what I did: - MBK shopping center - Chatuchak Market (on Friday before coming home) - Grand Palace and Wat Phra Kaeo - went on a choa phraya express boat ride , on a tuk-tuk, the skytrain , the subway and a river taxi - Mount Gold (or was it Go...

Again as usual, I now post some info of the life I've been living for the past month or so. Well one event that would interest everyone would of course be the Bon Odori event and trip to Port Klang for a group assignment for my course. The trip for the project was interesting to say the least and though I may not be the best group mate Ijust hope my attitude would be better soon. Anyway, it should turn out well, but still early to say. Next would be the Bon Odori event 2 weeks ago. I went with the EMINA club at MMU Cyber and was glad I went as well as can't believe what I've been missing before. Had loads of fun and ate my fill :) :D . There were lots of food stalls and such till I couldn't choose which I liked better. Managed to eat some sushi, octopus balls , tried a bit of my friend's curry and japanese ice ^_^ (yummy) . Besides that, joined in the traditional dances and met my DA friends there. That's all to report for now, getting blurer and blurer...

Well... looks like my fears have come to past and now all I'm doing is crying every day and every night. What for and why, that's the problem. I've not been who I should be and do what i should do till i suffered the consequences. I know I've not been trustworthy and such for this sem. i've realised that I've grown distant of myself (my real self) and need to change once more as I'm not giving up. yeah, the same old babble as last time but i guess when this sem is over it's time for another big change. Others will be the judge of what i become and hopefully i don't have to elongate this funny problem over and over agian as by now, many are probably pissed with me for being such a monster. That's probably all I have to rant out this time for the bad stuff. For the good things, this holiday, I have a trip to Singapore to look forward to as well as long awaited scuba diving training which I've missed for at least 4 years. will get my lic...

well... Like title says, there are alot of things overdue, besides my assignments like photos and such from various occasions. For instance, the MMU Rakan Muda Swim Carnival 2006, along with a few other past photos i never got to post. Alot has happened to me lately till all that drove me on was an inner most monster that had been sealed away long ago. But I've realised things now and thought that it's about time that I recollect the pieces of me that shattered to remold it into something better. Hmm... I'm sure that none of you would like to hear all that sort of nonsense and stuff about myself. So... here are some things that you may enjoy better. Here are the latest photos I've taken within this sem. Ok maybe not all but i guess just for the Swim Carnival for now . Swimmers 1 Azlan, Zaim & Lawrence Ken Li , Yee Yong & Me Ken-li and me Swimmers-1 (sorry, the pics were quite big so if you want to view them... click on the links ^^; sorry for the inconv...

Ok, I admit, I'm very confused with myself right now. I'm a childish person and nobody likes that (or so some say). I have very odd habits, lazy to do work (especially since last sem) and too afraid to show my true potential in everything. Is there really something wrong with me? What happened to me that I molded this insecure personality? Is it stress, paranoia or just plain me? What do I lack , hmm.. that's simple, I lack confidence, belief in myself and doubt that I can do things as well as others but in my own way. This feeling is so familiar as it's the same feel I had when I frist joined, Kolej Tuanku Ja'afar, when I was form3. According to my current group of friends, they said it's because of my style and probably because I crave attention. Maybe I do, but why? what did i do to become this way? Why did I bring back the 'me' that I closed up years before? When I first started Multimedia University, Cyber, I admit I was nervous, but af...

Well, now it really has been a while since I came here. Nothing much has changed except for a lot of assignments and other activities. As of late, I rejoined Wushu, Swimming Club and took part in the Cross-Cultural Pageant. All was fun but now, working time is limited due to not thinking ahead and other reasons. Despite that, I've been working on my fantasy fiction which at the moment is called 'Kulania' but it's in the works. Sadly when I reformated my pc, all 25 pages worth of work was lost T_T and now I have to re-write it all over again. I count myself lucky as eventhough that was lost, the original copy which I wrote in a book was still safe, but many new ideas went down the drain. Nevermind, I will re-write it and will make it better than ever. Besides that, I've been delaying alot of my fanfictions as well as fanart. Once the sem is over I'm gonna have to really finish them and maybe practice some long neglected games and softwares. There's nothi...

Well, yesterday was the 'Wushu Integration' Day at Multimedia University, Melaka. The ones present were, Multimedia University, Melaka (the host), Multimedia University, Cyberjaya (the brother university), UCSI (University College Seday International), Tengku Abdul Rahman College (TAR College), Sekolah Menengah Pay Fong and Chin Woo Wushu Association (a few representatives atleast). It was a fun-filled day and we played alot of games with involved groups. Some ended quite painfully but at the same time we all laughed it off as we enjoyed ourselves. After the opening ceremony by the head of Melaka Wushu Club, the Head of Multimedia University (if I'm not mistaken) and the Master of Chin Woo, the main events started. Yup it was the much feared performances and we all did our best (eventhough we all nearly tripped over the stage carpet set for us to perform on ^^;). It was quite cool and managed to get most of it on tape using my dad's old videocam with the help of a frien...

Well finally Abang Amir is married and I wish him all the best. I'm sure Abang Amir will be a good husband to Kak Aida and now i wonder how many kids they'll have :P. He is the youngest of four siblings and all four of them had equally taken care of me ever since i was a baby. I love them all and always take care of their kids (I think I may have spoiled them as much as my aunt ^_^;;; (their grandmother)). Anyway, when i find the time I'll babysit them either way, even if I have to do so 5 at a time :P. Ok that's all for now. As for photos, they're on their way ^_^ ;;;. Cousins practice Kompang dancers-1 Dancers-2 Dancers 3 Dancers4 Bang Ilyas & Bang Iska Arrival -1 Arrival 2 Bride & Groom Bride & Groom-2

Meow :), last weekend was the 'Comic Fiesta 2005' at Sekolah Sri Sedaya. It was great fun and before we went, me and stayed over at kak 's house. I'm glad to have been able to help her and kak Divine with the doujins (I didin't do much really ^^;) but I had fun and did some shopping at CF :D. There were so many people whom I bumped into and I was so surprised to see my junior from KTJ (kolej tuanku ja'afar) there as well as a few more people. I even got to meet the friends I met during MMU's 'Anime Week '05' earlier this year, especially the one that helped carry me out of the multipurpose hall when my foot got sprained ;p ^^;. I was glad to see her again, but i was a little sad that i didn't get to see a few others from the Anime Week :cries:. But even so, I hope to see them again during the next 'MMU EMINA Anime Week' :w00t:.

Oh right, I'm a little late writing this as 'Hari Raya' was 3 days ago, but no matter, it's the 4th day . Well, I'm glad to say that I enjoyed this year's 'Raya' as many of my cousins whom I haven't seen in years came back to see me . I'm also surprised that one of them still thinks I was promary school she left behind around 4-6 years ago . Really missed her and finally I get to see her daughter whom I've only heard about but not met. Since we are such a big family, , we all recieved alot of 'Duit Raya' in green packets and strangely, my adoptive chinese mother also got into the season, but gave a red packert to me and my siblijgs . She looked pretty and she brought along her family with her to the open house at my grandma's house ( my mom's mother ). It's coincidental that her kids as well as me and my sibs are all the same age. Other than that, She and her eldest daughter , Jenny, were with me in the hospital when I wa...

*Yawn...* Can't believe or understand why I'm so tired. Must be fatigue from the trip ;P. Anyway, finally finished editing and uploading selected photos from the trip :phew:. Took a whole day and strangely I was yawning the whole day today. Well, the trip was quite enjoyable and too short I might add as there was so much to see but so little time :tears:. Since I had limited funds, too, I didn't really get to buy many souveniers for my friends eithe :cries: or get as many photos (for an unknown reason). Other than that, on the first day, I went on a tour and when it ended, I had to find my way back to the hotel (The ANA Hotel) on my own. Luckily the tourist guide , Yuki-san, helped me find my way by showing me which subway line to take. After some difficulties of taking a wrong line, buying a ticket and trying to figure out which tunnel or line leads to where, I managed to reach the hotel within an hours time safe and sound :phew:. Seriously was an experience of a lifetime ...