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This isn't working, body is here mind is out in space

2011-03-20T18:34:00.002+08:00

Well it's entering the 4th week of the semester at Curtin University and yet my mind still isn't in the right place. What is wrong with me ?

Too much in my mind till it refuses to think and that isn't good :( especially not now. I really need to find the motivation to do my work and not fail this last chance to study and make something of myself.

Sure it was good that my dad and sister visited me and asked me to sleep over with them at my cousin's house in Hillarys, but now I see it was a bad move. Made me lazier though it was good spending time with them.

Either way, somehow I need to crawl out of this gutter and find a way to gain inspiration and motivation to not fail this time around. It's the only way I can ever get any closer in achieving my dream.

That's all for now.

Sea Enigma

New Beginning in a New Environment,,,,

2011-03-01T22:33:00.002+08:00

At last, though there had been conflict after conflict at home, I am now starting my new course in Communication and Cultural Studies (creative writing).It may be just for one year but it makes all the difference. I'm away from my home in Malaysia and am back in a dorm in Bentley, Australia.

True that I'm 'suffering' from the 1st time jitters, being away from my comfort zone in Kuala Lumpur and being in a whole new environment. It will pass nonetheless. I am glad to be out of the house, yet, there are so many whom I miss dearly. Made some new friends and yet I'm very lonely to the extent of tears.

It has only been 2 weeks since I set foot in my new life as a student at Curtin University, Bentley, Australia. Things are very new and almost 'alien' to my senses. There are so many things that I want to do and so little time. I wish to further my participation in Martial Arts, improve in my performance skills and gain the confidence I never though possible, get a part time job, do well in my course and above else build a future here to fulfill my dreams and ideals.

There's still alot to be done.
I should refrain my online activities such as going on IMVU and go out a bit more, overcome the overbearing heat and explore the new territory. Like my flatmate DaeYeon said, I should really get a job. End this current depression and cheer up, not cry in my room every alternate day. I dare say that he had given me so much advice since I got here, though Moogi, Makoto and James have been helpful too. Ended up sharing a flat with 5 guys and 2 girls.

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Classes have been good so far and pretty enjoyable. Still have a lot to understand and so much to catch up upon. Need to get back into the groove of getting up early, eating right and living with others with duties. I will be fine and strong.

Well that's all for now,

Thanks to all who dropped by.

Sea Enigma

Why can't I decide on what I want ????

2010-12-20T19:08:00.003+08:00

I've been doing some thinking especially since we started practising for the Zahari family gathering and my cousin 'Abang Ariff's' wedding.

I like so many things and because of the indecisiveness and lack of planning (which I normally never do) my Dad thinks it's better that I stay in Malaysia another year. But thinking about it now, if I wait another year, I'll get even lazier and less motivated. I don't want that to happen. Just thinking about it makes me cry.

I really need to get out of this house and go to Australia next year, despite my parents' worries. I personally can't take this life here, living at home doing nothing , being under-motivated and less active. It's screwing me up. Mum's probably right, I need to get out into the World, no matter how harsh it is.

I really like these activities:
- Performing (Singing, Dancing, Martial Arts...etc..)
- Reading and Writing
- Sports (Swimming, Martial Arts, Scuba Diving, Badminton...etc..)
- Art (Drawing, Painting, Making fan AMVs (animated music videos))

But at the end of the day, I need to choose one, and the most versatile one as from experience, I'm not the type to just sit around at a desk doing work. It makes me sleepy. True though that performing and sports require a lot of physical work and is more tiring and more challenging, but I'd rather do that than be stuck in a desk.

I really want to perform as a performer, and it is also true that it's not gonna earn me much money. But it's my passion. Though I have to say, I am willing to take up 'Writing' as a job as I do like to write and take up Martial Arts and Scuba Dive courses to make ends meet. I'm willing to do anything to gain income, just not an office or sales job.

Though I've never told my parents sincerely, I really really really want to go abroad, but because of pressure, my mouth goes numb and end up not saying anything. If I ever do say anything, I get screamed at. I want to earn my own money, but it has to be of my choosing, regardless of everyone else's opinions.

Also, I can take care of myself, regardless on what my parents see in my room and how I act around the house. It's hard to show it to them, when you're being pressured every single day and when you're living under their roof. Their standards are too high for me to meet. But though I never show it, I know how to clean a place. Again the motivation and the determination has been suppressed. To gain it again may take months. That's how I work, regardless with all the lectures of 'YOU HAVE TO CHANGE AND GROW UP!!!!'.

I suppose I should start talking to Regina, Sook Yin, Sussanna, Mrs.Lourdes and probably Kian and Zie Aun more. I can't do this alone, I don't want to get scolded or screamed at by my parents.

Till then,
I have to work hard like Jeff Rizal(despite the fact my parents said the same thing) said, get fit, slim down, toughen up, get back into Martial Arts, practice and go for more Auditions, don't be picky and be professional. I also have advice from my cousins, Johan, Johanna and Illani on how to get fit. It will take a while but it's a must if I really want to got to Australia next year.

That's all for now and will post some pics up soon.

My Birthday pics taken by Dad (14th December 2010) with my cousins (Jasmine and Adriz), nephew (Danial) , nieces(Hanna, Suraya and Shakira), my sister (Lara) and her friend (Rachel) :

Thanks for dropping by :)

Merry Christmas to all and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Sea Enigma

Why are my senses blurred out ?

2010-11-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

It certainly has been some time since I've posted here. Too long in fact. My senses are certainly numb and blur, especially when I'm trying to fight for what I want. But now given the chance to take it, why does it somehow feel wrong? It's like it may not really be the thing I really want. That scares me to tears T_T

I honestly have no clue on how to react on what my parents want me to do. True that the entertainment business isn't really that big in Malaysia now and that the competition is high, but as terrified as I am, it's what I want to do. Either that, I'm just trying to live a fantasy which may not even come true (or will just not be something I would see through or it's something I won't expect) .

Now I'm finding myself wondering why exactly do I want to be a performer. Is it because it allows me to much more than I am (even if my face lacks expression, I tend to blur out and get stiff with nervousness)? I do admit I enjoy performing, and I need more practice than most people. Is it because I wish to be respected since I was always bullied back in school and was always ignored? What am I trying to prove ( to myself, my family and friends)? Is it to gain confidence, bring out another part of me or is it just to be loved?

I still admit, I am very sensitive, stubborn, emotional, work according to mood and often childish. Under pressure, or if I'm tired or feeling poorly, I become numb, unresponsive, express anger (shout), sadness (cry) and throw tantrums. It's true I'll be turning 24 soon, yet I still act as a child and often would not follow advice especially when it's against the way I think, I would end up blocking everything and I do mean 'EVERYTHING'. I still find it hard to accept a lot of things, too.

What makes things worse, now after 7 months working at Q-dees Taman Tun, under Kak Julia, now I'm losing my temper more often and I'm as tired as ever. I can't concentrate, I keep forgetting that they're just babies and should not be scolded so often. My patience is gone completely. Maybe being a teacher was really not for me. But if that's the case... what is?

In a way my dad is right, I've blocked all input and would not accept any job unless it's something I enjoy. But is there anything wrong with that? Hasty or irresponsible and childish as it is, that is my character. Whether it is a complete flaw, uniqueness or a changeable trait, I'm still unsure.

I like and dislike so many things till I have no clue which one to prioritise first. It's bad enough that my parents are debating with me on what I should do and my current options and what jobs and skills would pay the bills. Plus I need to re-do my IELTS exam as I didn't make the cut in the writing section. Now I'm thinking twice on whether or not I should further my studies overseas at all and regretting not taking up performing arts back when I was 16 and not wasting my time in Creative Multimedia (though it wasn't an entire waste).

Other than that, I need to loose weight as I don't exactly like the way I look, especially when I look at the photographs taken by my dad and others. I either feel that I look fat, unattractive, have no appropriate expression on my face and I just plain 'ugh'. Is this a sign that I don't love myself enough to look my best or I'm just not putting enough effort to look my best. Either that, it's still a confidence probably and lack of motivation, patience and inspiration.

If you've reached this far, it means that you've noticed that I'm still rambling the same old thing and not going anywhere, which is initially true. Plus all the photos I've put up are of my performing and the latest performance I was in, which was 'Buatan Malaysia 2' at the Actors Studio @ Lot10 shopping mall in Kuala Lumpur.

Hope to put up more photos later on.

But till then, this is all for now. Still alot to do before my last Parent Teacher Meeting this Saturday (27th November 2010) and my Level 2 Singing Exam.

Thanks for dropping by.

Sea-chan

Practice, Practice, Practice...!!! Gastric = owie T-T

2010-10-30T19:25:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is another big day for my cousin Azwann. It's his wedding reception and I'm sure he and the bride will be nervous. SO am I actually, being one of the wedding singers, next to my 2 other cousins Johanna and Jasmine, and my 2 adorable nieces Suraya and Shakira.

I really need to practice and study for my IELTS but I came down with a gastric problem and no it's not helping with my anxiety and my appetite. Looks like no dinner for me as I doubt I can take another bite especially with this very annoying pain in my tummy!!

Nonetheless, I really need to practice and I wanna put on a good show for the bride and groom and the rest of my family. Above all else I want to give it my all and develop my self-esteem.

Hopefully I can study too. I really need to get through the IELTS exam. May have to take a day off though.

Well, that's all for now.
Thanks for dropping by.

Sea Enigma

A surprising 40 laps and Study Study Study!!!!

2010-10-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

Well today was just like any other.
I went to work at the Q-dees Kindergarden, arrived home at about 2pm and took a 3 hour nap. By the time I woke up, I was alone at home (well not completely alone as my sister Lara was in her room.

For a while I sat pondering on what I should do though I did have to study for my up-coming IELTS exam and prepare the song for Abang Azwann's wedding. Plus I have not really exercised in a while and not been in the pool for a couple of weeks due to flu. Neither have I been to the gym as my new mp3 player had been misplaced and deemed lost. After pondering I had decided to go for a swim.

As usual, I had the pool all to myself, though occasionally some of the neighbours would be there or the kids or at the gym. But I was fortunate as I swim better when alone. Generally in the pool I would just go for half an hour to an hour non-stop regardless on how many laps I had done. But today I decided to count my laps and though the most I had done previously were 20-25 or 30, today I decided to push it and ended with 40 laps.

Though surprised, I was actually glad and didn't feel the fatigue but I would most definitely feel it in the morning.

As for my IELTS exam. Preparation is still under-way and honestly as much as I want to, I have grown lazy and currently am sleepy. But will get there nonetheless as it is similar to my MUET exam when I was in MMU Cyber.

As the exam is next month on the 6th ... the only thing I could do is STUDY!STUDY!STUDY!... Plus I also have my singing exam on the 15th >_< so I also need to PRACTICE!PRACTICE!PRACTICE!

For my cousin's wedding I'll be singing:
'From Beginning to End' by Ryu (the main 'Winter Sonata' theme)

As for my singing exam, I'll be performing:
'My Immortal' by Evanescence
&
'The Boy Does Nothing' by Alesha Dixon

Well, that's all for today...
Thanks to all who drop by and Goodnight

Sea Enigma

What I did was wrong, I still believe that my dreams should not be cast away

2010-10-26T22:04:00.005+08:00

It is true,
I may have been unfair to my parents, especially my dad who has been supporting all my wishes since I was small. Yet, why do I still feel 'HATE' towards my parents, especially my mother. Though she thinks I have no idea how harsh, difficult and unfair the performance and entertainment business is, but I do (having been rejected from 'Malaysian Idol' twice and facing better singers in the Young KL Singers and getting lower marks in the Singing Shop Vocal Exam compared to my sister).

I may not be as good as most of the local artists, or have the best voice like the local singers, but that is no reason to not let me try. Again of course I may be harsh and may not 'UNDERSTAND' my mother and her past, but I feel that I know enough and I disagree totally of her methods and of HER as a person.

It is also true that I will be 24 this December and should be working as well as living out of the house, yet circumstances deem otherwise at this moment. Yet I am a very sensitive person too and may not be as strong as others as they want me to be and I do understand that my parents want the best for me, despite our disagreement in which I feel is better.

Plus, though I only had Leukaemia, I have heard that those who have had cancer could not be stressed out too much as we could not take it and risk re-activating the cancer cells again. But that's only what I've heard and it technically out of the topic at hand.

I honestly have no idea what to do, especially with mum being so forceful and telling me that I have been 'bitching' about her and my dad to my aunties and whoever I have talked to. Well I can't help it, though she says I can but choose not to, but she doesn't care and says she loves me (which I can never seem to believe any more).

I do know that they are trying hard to support me and my brother and sister and have spent thousands on me for treatment and education. Yet why am I not satisfied? Is it because I always got what I wanted? Is it because I was never good enough in their eyes? What exactly am I capable of? What do they want of me? What am I afraid of till I can't tell them everything (though one answer to that is that they say all my methods are impractical and unrealistic- well can't help that as my logic is very different though to them I have none at all)?

To be honest I just want to SCREAM, CRY and someone to kill me now as I can't take all of this. It may not be as bad but my mind is blank and I can't tell right from wrong and have been rebelling more and more ever since after my time in Kolej Tuanku Ja'afar, which was a good 6 years ago.

I don't want to do this anymore, I want things to go back to the way it used to be when things were easier, though that may not be.

What exactly do I want out of life? To sing, act, dance, do martial arts, scuba dive and write? That I do, yet now, when I have a chance to take it, I feel like something isn't right or feels odd?

I really do wanna sing, dance, act, do martial arts and write, yet what is stopping me? Laziness? Hearing my mum's voice in my head saying I can't do it and I don't have what it takes? It won't make much money in the future and I can't survive? Then what SHOULD I do?

I would never take up an office job, no never. I can't stand sitting on my butt all day. What can I do?

So many questions in my head yet to be answered. I should probably get more sleep and just concentrate at my job at Q-dees kindergarden, studying for my up-coming IELTS exam and prepare for both Abang Azwann's wedding performance this Sunday and the YKLS (Young KL Singers) performance next month.

That's all for now,

Sea-chan

Selamat Hari Raya to all ^_^ (Eve of Raya)

2010-09-09T00:18:00.005+08:00

(my 2 latest drawings *points up*)

Well... the Fasting month of Ramadan is coming to a close tomorrow (aka today as it's already 12am). I'd say finally as it has been very tiring and nerve-wrecking at best this year. There were definitely many factors involved and none were helping as every day I was so tired, so tired to the point of crying. Not to say though that none of my other family members weren't tired either.It's practically normal to be honest.

I'm honestly glad it's over, though of course God's many trials will still be there nonetheless.

This year, like all years, traditionally there will be an open house conducted at both my grandmothers' homes where all of us family members will get together. Though over the years, as we've all gotten older and some of my ever-doting cousins have families of their own, while some have moved on and live elsewhere, I daresay, for the passed 8 years, Raya seems lonely. But that is to be expected as you grow older, your family has grown and there are more in-laws to visit, too many to keep track of in so little time in the day.

Though one thing has changed this year. As I am working now, though the pay is menial in comparison to what my older cousins are earning, I would be giving 'Duit Raya' (money in green packets) this year. It won't be much but for once I'll be giving Raya packets to my many nieces and nephews as well as my younger cousins.

Other than that, things are a little strained between me and my new boyfriend. We've been together in this long distance relationship for nearly 6 months now and yet somehow I feel as if we don't really communicate much anymore. It was the same when I was with my ex, Kian, but maybe I'm just paranoid. For all I know it's nothing. Plus, he is 'Sephiroth' in the 'Final Fantasy Convergence Forum' ( ).

I really miss him though I practically see him online all the time. Yet, maybe it's because we've never met face to face nor have we ever done a web cam chat, I'm feeling a little neglected or just being selfish that I want him to be with me always. Though that's practically unfair of me, but in a way, it may mean that I am jealous that he's spending more time in his 'role' in the Role-playing sessions in the forum and that he's spending more time with everyone else than with me.

I shouldn't feel this way, especially since Raya is this Friday and I should be happy as I look forward to Raya every year. Plus I haven't even started baking yet >.< but am getting to it. I'm gonna see if I can break my record by baking more than 8 cakes, lots of brownies and chocolate chip + m&m cookies (which I haven't done since I was 16). There's so much I wanna do and so little time, but I can do it,I'm sure I can.

That should be all for now, my eyes are tired from all the crying done today and the fact that I am exhausted from my sister's party the day before. Below are some photos my dad took yesterday at the party :

Anyway, with that done...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada para Muslimin dan Musliman :D Maaf Zahir dan Batin !!!!!

Have a Great Raya this year everyone !!!!

A very hectic yet eventful month ...

2010-08-25T00:06:00.004+08:00

Well... I have to say...
I really should spend some time a day posting in my blog.
Though I guess I never really had much to share these passed few months.

But here goes my train of thought again... more like the usual ranting.
As the title says, it has indeed been a pretty hectic month.

Reasons being...:

1. I finally graduated from Multimedia University, Cyberjaya, Malaysia on the 1st of August 2010.

2. My part time job at Q-dees pre-school has gotten more hectic...

3. Training wing chun is a great work out, but like all things, it's kinda taking its toll on my body (as my daily routine starts at minimum 5:30am in the morning)

4. Joining back my an old singing group called 'The Young KL Singers' as I've been aspiring to do for the passed 4 years.

5. Dance lessons for the kids at Q-dees have commenced as their concert will be coming up soon in October.

6. I had finally revealed who my online boyfriend was on Facebook

7. I had made a decision that I really want to pursue studies in acting and performing, despite many protests from my parents (especially my mother) Though I will need to save up alot (and I do mean alot)

8. Trying my best to draw, paint and write again ... though have not been successful

9. Most of all, I had a good reunion dinner with my many brothers and sisters of the MMU Wushu club, though i wished more attended.

Well... that's practically it for now and for those who are Muslim,
the month of Ramadan is here again and all are fasting and hopefully , even if it's just this time of the year, it would bring families even closer.

Though as much as this is a month to be thankful for, the Anniversary of my grandfather's passing grows near as well T_T . I know I shouldn't be but I still mourn and cry every time I think of the little things and the role he played in my life. I miss him greatly and though i was not as close to him as i was with my grandmother, I could still remember his voice if he were to sing the song 'Widuri'.

Gosh, as I'm typing this, tears are flowing like waterfalls *shakes it off*.

Pushing that aside, below are the latest photos of what had been happening for the passed 2 months :

I guess that's all for now.
More pictures will come, once I get some sleep.

Wouldn't wanna be late for work, though i called in sick today.

Thank you to all who have been dropping by and to all the Muslims out there...

Happy Fasting, Selamat Berpuasa, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Sea Enigma

Not sure what has gotten into me... Crying again

2010-04-27T18:29:00.002+08:00

This sure has been a weird day...
One minute I'm fine, but now... I'm crying again... Is it because I'm just tired or I am just worried, worried for someone I care about and practically my own skin.

Why I worry, it's because I care about him too much and love him so intensely despite being in a long distance relationship. I shouldn't worry, yet I still cry.

I may probably just be tired as I did have a long day yesterday, partially from waking up early, going shopping for groceries and swimming. Plus I was on the computer most of the day.

Hopefully it's just a change in hormones, from the upcoming new month and lack of sleep. Even so, that is no reason why I should cry, especially when I have found happiness with a guy since my last break up with Kian. Sometimes I really wonder how my head works.

I am just hoping this realigning of hormones, emotions and stepping into a new world of jobs won't affect my relationship with friends and family. I would never ever want to hurt anyone.

Plus... I wonder whether or not the threat and offer given to me by a friend in IMVU was genuine. That guy, claims to be the nephew of the famous WWE wrestler,though I won't mention who. Whether or not it was genuine, I have yet to find out. The situation of being offered to be paid to date someone is beyond my education, plus, being threatened to have my bones broken is even tougher. That can't be the true nature of

Despite being told not to worry, I still do, though I worry more about the one I care about. So many problems and so many obstacles and I am as weak as ever. Yet I am still unable to stay calm and keep a focused mind. The best bet maybe to trust in Allah and pray for the best. Not just for myself, but my friends, family and all I hold dear.

Thus leads to another reason why I need to get out of the house more often. Staying at home won't help at all. Need to spend more time with friends and family... plus I really need to get a job.

I guess that's all I can rant about today.

Thank you to those who drop by and please forgive the negativity posted up today.

Sea Enigma

Still unemployed... but searching for a new direction & IMVU

2010-04-25T22:07:00.003+08:00

Well I believe it has been some time since i posted anything on here.

For starters... I guess I have been busy chatting away on IMVU for one...
then there are family gatherings as can be seen below in my cousin's (Nurliza) photographs which she took during my other cousin's (Shazlina) Birthday karaoke session last week. That was fun...

Then of course there were other family gather as can be seen in the photos my dad took below (or at least from his camera)...

Well that's just the gist of what has been happening despite still being unemployed >_< though recent events have thrown me down and about and now I'm searching for a new direction to move to.

New objective:

- Get a job as a teacher
- Take up a Wushu instructor course
- Continue my Scuba Diving course
- Take up a performing arts course (acting and stage performances)
- Continue Singing lessons and maybe take up an instrument
- Spend more time with my cousins and other family members
- Keep up with friends... (somehow)

As for IMVU...

IMVU is a virtual chat room with a mix of game (rpg, mmorpg, console games, etc) avatars and online chat messengers (skype, msn, yahoo, etc..). There you can create your own avatar and customize them in anyway you want with the credit system. It's a fun way to chat with friends, family and increasing your network.

For more info, check out the main website:

Here are some of my pictures from there:

I've been using it on and off for the passed 6 years and never would i have thought I would find love and a relationship (a long distance one). So far the guy is nice, not exactly the 'type' i was looking for , but his similarities which a character I created is a tad uncanny.

The character I created was from a fanfiction and story I wrote 4 years ago from a dream I had. In fact back then I had already created several characters based on my family members, friends and some from scratch as well as my Dungeons and Dragons sessions with my friends before ( though i seldom talk to them now, and I'm assuming that they hate me :( ) .

The base of this particular male character was originally derived from 'Kadaj' ( Final Fantasy VII:Advent Children ).

His looks and personalities are like so:

- Silver and Gold short hair
- Near to 6 feet tall
- Lean but strong
- Charming, supportive,forgiving and caring
- Accepts a person for who they are
- Similar interests
- Sweet
- etc...

I had often believed that I would find a guy with those sort of qualities and I finally found him while chatting on IMVU. Though in real life, some improvements could be made with his look (no offense) but his nature and charm is enough to allow me to look passed everything else.

Won't reveal his ID or real life name just yet. But will do in time ^_^

Amongst other things, like in the Wushu club and Emina club in MMU Cyber, I did make many new friends and got 'adopted' into a family on IMVU. One of the other perks I enjoy with that application.

I guess that's all I have to say for today ...

Thank you to all who drop by...

All the best,

Sea Enigma

My trial short story - Dreams along the wind and the sea

2010-03-31T10:42:00.002+08:00

About a couple of days ago i just finished writing a really short story. Not entirely original, but it's a start. For those who dropped by, thanks for reading and dropping by :D

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Author’s Note: This is a trial short story and it may derive a bit from my original fan fictions and some of my earlier stories.

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Dreams along the wind and the sea

Stars blanketed the sky and a gentle cool wind blew as a figure lay in wait. His long silver and gold hair danced behind him like raging river rapids. He lay by the seaside clad in no more than his beach shorts on a straw woven mat, with a bag which he used to support his head as he lay gazing at the stars. Waiting, he was, for someone or… something. A gentle breeze blew, kissing his skin as it brushed against him.

In his mind, he could envision a silhouette shimmering in the moon light, maiden, with silvery blue hair, which glowed mysteriously in the darkness. She would wear an armor-like tube top that blended with the night. A mysterious being, she was, an enigma.

Though at first she would not stand, but crawl up from beneath the waves. As she approaches a mystifying dark green fish tail could be seen as her other half. A mermaid she was, and what a beauty to behold. Her dark brown eyes sparkled, imitating the stars above. He could see her bright and clear in the night the closer she got to him. Stunned place, he gazed upon her features, her every curve till the flipping tail. Just as she touched land and her tail flipped the sand, the sand swirled around her. Her form began to change.

Where her tail should have been, legs replaced them. The silvery blue hue of her hair melted in to forest and lime green. She donned garments of Amazonian warrior fashion, which showed off her slightly toned figure. Indeed a beauty to behold. He had seen her time and time again from afar, now up close he wanted more than anything to know her, hold her and have her for his very own.

Gently she padded the softness of the sand towards him. His vision now adjusted to the slight darkness could see her mouth form a smile, a smile for him and him alone. Instantly his lips curved as he grinned back at her. An arm reached out to her, she took it. Affectionately she leaned into it as it tenderly pressed against her skin. This close and he could already hear his heart drumming in his ear.

Razer Wolffang’s face blushed as she got even closer, reaching out her hand to smoothly caress his facial features. Adrenaline commuted like a bullet train through his veins as he struggled to control himself. Overwhelmed by lust and the need to consume her, his male instincts were bit by bit taking control. His hands moved on their own browsing against her back, then trail from her neck down to her breasts and her stomach.

He could feel her shiver, which boosted his rush of emotions higher. Her breathing quickened along with his when he grasped her in an embrace, which soon revealed how high in desire he was as his erection brushed against her. Though he couldn’t see, hot blood rushed through her veins which caused her to shiver even more, with her voice going limp succumbing to the pleasure. At his touch, her limbs tingled with sensitivity.

Hearts continued to drum as they explored each other’s bodies. Together they danced the dance of passion as the winds lifted them up into the sky. With his arms around her, her ability to fly, though in the pale moonlight her transparent wings were seen only in a glimmer and his ability to surf alongside the wind aided them as their silent danced commenced. His angel and one only love, how long he had waited for her only he knew. The winds lifted them high above the clouds where only the bright crescent moon and the sea of stars were their company.

Razer’s eyes gazed at hers and silently he whispered, “I love you.”The mysterious girl only smiled as she closed her eyes in acceptance, which he took advantage of by sealing it with a kiss.

Though was it just a simple kiss as it gradually turned into a steamy session of vigorous kisses and caress, all in the safety of the clouds and company of the moon and stars. Breaths taken away, both rode on the wings of passion. The cool air around them caused them to shiver as they clung desperately to each other for warmth increasing to the pleasurable steam engulfing them.

Being of 2 different worlds, they should not have been able to meet and fall in love, yet here they were, dancing the ritual of love and ardor. Their caress was long, teasing and yet delicious at the same time, yet quaint and gentle, though their kisses were mind-blowing with excitement and uncontrollable desire. This fueled his body with so much adrenaline which filled him so much he thought he could explode like millions of new-born stars bursting to life.

He could not wait any longer and whispered to her once more, “I’ll be meeting you now.” Razer watched her for a moment as she thought of a reply. The silver and gold haired man waited and waited till at last she finally spoke, “Razer?”

Confused he replied, “Yes, I’m here, are you alright?” Yet her response was still the same. It wasn’t until his vision became fuzzy and fuzzier every time she spoke till she eventually kissed him. When she did, another face in the darkness appeared with a familiar voice calling his name.

“Razer, Razer, wake up honey, you dozed off again,” the voice exclaimed as she pushed several strands of hair away from his face. The sounds of the ocean waves brushing against the sand could be heard once more with the cool winds blowing in wrapping itself against their skin. Her features showed slight concern and a caring air surrounded her.

Gradually his eyes adjusted, as they woke up to the face of the mystery girl of his dreams, “Enima, sweetie, you’re finally back, I was getting worried,” he replied as he slowly got up to embrace her. As he did his certain lower half stuck out causing the young woman to giggle. His reaction was slow at first and when he finally realized why she giggled, his faced glowed red like a traffic light awkwardly. From a giggle the green haired young woman laughed slightly as he began to try and hide his little problem from view. His antics would amuse her to no end and watching her smile made him even happier despite the embarrassment.

“Oh really,” she giggled as she pecked him on the cheek, “I go for a night swim beneath the waves for a little more than an hour and I find you ‘uh hmm’ excited, dear,” her giggles continued as she poked him in chest with her finger, gently pushing him back down till his head rested once more on his little bag. He could hardly fight against her, especially finding him in such a mortifying state, though it showed how crazy he was of her. She then lay next to him, with her sea water soaked body brushing against him as he pulled her closer. A few damp locks of her hair fell against his chest as her head lay against his shoulder.

“You seem to have been fantasizing about something while I was gone, haven’t you, Mr. Razer Wolffang?” she said as her fingers traced along his toned chest and 6-pack stomach. His skin was cool from the cool beach air. Enima could hear his breath and heartbeat quicken in both excitement and discomfiture as he struggled to find his words, yet he could not hide anything from his bride.

“Well, Mrs. Asilia Sea Enigma Wolffang, how could a man not fantasize when such a lucky man like me gets a mystifying bride such as yourself?” he gently pecked her hair, “especially the way we first met and how you finally found your powers.”Razer then blushed as he reminisced. Though in his dreams, it had be a scene which had originally been a vision then a wish which occurred several years before they met, yet here they were, happily married and expecting. But they don’t know that yet.

“I suppose you’re right,” then she smiled then shivered, “brr… it’s getting a bit cold out here, shall we get going?” Enima looked up at him as he nodded a response as he got up and pulled out a towel from his bag and wrapped it around her. They rolled up the mat together before walking together hand in hand in the moonlight leaving a trail of footsteps in the sand in their wake.

Thus, shows how dreams can most definitely come true, even in a world where mystical imagination, unimaginable feats and magic run wild and free. Nothing is impossible as long as you believe and stay true to your hopes and dreams.

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Missing martial arts, job hunting again... Swimming... Singing

2010-03-10T01:38:00.006+08:00

Well... I've certainly been distracted...too much it seems.

It's been almost a full semester since I have stopped going for classes and going to campus. Really missing it and the Wushu training and my 'brothers'.

Plus... the guy whom I thought was interested in me, is practically ignoring me :(
Though in a way, it's all well and good as he was not worth it either way. He was a player and too much of a clubber. It made me realize how much I still missed Kian and that I'm not that keen in looking for another just yet, even if lust tells me otherwise.

It seems luck of job hunting has not been with me since the year began, but I will keep trying, no matter what anyone says. As I understand how tough the entertainment world is and how tough the world in general is, and yet none believe me.

I do believe though that there are nice people where you least expect it.

Just yesterday, I was on my way up the Sg. Wang plaza carpark and hit the curb. The impact dislocated the left side of the bumper and blew my left tire. In my despair, after talking to a friend calling my dad and waiting for him to arrive. When i calmed down, I looked in the trunk to get the spare tire, only to find my jack missing.

Thinking it through i walked up to a stranger sitting in his lorry and asked to borrow his. He told me to wait for his boss which i did. The next thing i knew, instead of just lending me the jack, they changed my tire for me!!

How lucky was tht?!
They were so nice and I was cheered up. My dad arrived soon after. Only then did we send the car back to the workshop yet again :(

Either way...
I now only have 2 forms of exercise here at home now... which is the gym and the pool. Really missing the training sessions and being with my friends :(
What else am i to do? Plus there's to b a Wushu exam coming up :( unless i skip it this time, which won't be good.

What am i to do plus, my mum is being a big pain as usual as she's too 'BUSY' to do anything, being the only working one in the house. I understand i have to get a job too, but wht's the point if she keeps telling me not to take up the jobs which i could get because it would ruin her and dad's 'IMAGE'.

If that's the case i might as well continue 'Ads4Bucks' full time as it on its own is a job too.

I enjoy singing alot more now thnx to the classes and slowly getting in tune to the 'me' inside... but like all things... some events may cause it to 'hide' again. Getting closer to my aunts, uncles and cousins again, which is also good.

Helped my aunt babysit my 3 nieces at her house over the weekend, as she took care of my grandmother. It's so good to be around them, as they're all so supportive. I even dare say i love them more than I love my mother. It's not good religiously, i know, but she and my dad tend to do things which make me distance myself from them... especially my mother. I want to love her.. but i just can't.

No matter what she says, no matter her contacts or whether or not she bends over backwards to do things... she keeps bringing her work attitude home. She's stressed out, too 'BUSY' and ... to her ... money and work seems to be more important than family to her. Which i highly disagree on.

Seriously...

I have no idea what to do now as all my dreams are being shot down yet again.

Again... Negativity gets me down :(

Will somehow find my light and see where it'll lead me...

That's all for now,

Ja ne

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Forget about what you thought your ''type'' was, because this year it's about to change. You'll find yourself attracted to someone you never would've given second glance a year ago. It may seem weird and foreign at first, but this is the best possible thing for you. You might not like it, but you're going to have to get out of your comfort zone in order to find the excitement you've been craving. As long as you refuse to fall back on old habits, you'll have more romance than you know what to do with.

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Did I make the right choice? Is what they say about him true? Which path do I choose?

2010-01-11T02:18:00.002+08:00

To those who visit my blog...
though it is late...
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

This is the first post for this year 2010....
To be honest, for a new year, my mood has still been reverted to its usual sad and confused self.

Again I ask the same questions...:

- What is my destiny?
- What is my purpose in this world?
- What are my capabilities and abilities?
- What do I fight for?
- Did I make the right choices?
- Do I really love him?
- Have I gotten over Kian?
- Am I really that worthless?
- How do I strive to improve?
- Is there hope for me in this new relationship with Jeihan?
- Is he really a hypocrite and two-faced as they tell me?
- Is he the right guy for me?

At the end of the day... I am still at loss at what I want, what to decide, how to do things and blur ... wondering if things are real or really what they seem.

I care for Jeihan and yet, am I really over Kian?
Plus... what do I really wanna do in life?
Do i wanna act, sing, do wushu, scuba dive, dance, do video editing or what?

Am I trying hard enough to envision and do things to reach my goal?

I don't think so as I still don't know where to start.

For instance with Jeihan...
He had all the qualities I looked for in a guy:
- Baby face
- Mature
- Strong physique
- Good personality
- Knows how to please and teach
- Good looks

and yet... he had certain minus qualities... such as:

- he smokes
- he drinks
- some of our music interests clash
- he has certain mood swings
- he's not a sports person
- he's younger than me by 3 years

Even so, I do care about him quite a lot.
Yet... 2 of my friends tell me to be wary of him, from their experiences.

Plus, there is a possibility that my feelings for him are a rebound of my feelings for Kian. I have yet to understand what my true feelings are towards him and maybe straighten things out both ways.

As far as jobs are concerned, I have a part-time job as a Video Editor with GenPro, though I'm still looking for more opportunities... which include working at Aquaria KLCCCC and maybe looking for auditions for various performance experiences.

On top of things... I am still heart broken by the fact that many believe I may not make it as a singer. Though it's also my fault for both not believing in myself and putting the effort to improve. If that is really what I want, I have to work towards it. Whether it be being a singer, actress, martial artist, singer or scuba diver, I need to put in effort, time, motivation, criticism and passion into it.

Yet my inner child wonders which path I should choose or should try. Even if it means trying other things like self advertising, video editing, videography and photography or anything unrelated to my goal.

I seem to cry buckets now and still the tears won't stop...
What do I do?
Whom do i call?

Either way,
it's late and it's time to sleep or my health will be in jeopardy of getting sick again.

Oyasumi, Wan An, Selamat Malam, Good Night...

Stress, Tired, Wushu, FYP, new love?... Someone kill me now....

2009-11-27T03:02:00.002+08:00

I know I do not usually put these sort of posts unless I really-really needed to rant.

It's been a tiring 2 weeks plus pretty eventful in some aspects... some to my dislike.

Wushu training has gone up a notch and is practically killing most of us mentally as Master Woo is getting pissed off at us again.
We'll be doing a 15minute long performance at an 'Aids Charity Event' in Wangsa Maju

FYP (Final Year Project) progress is pretty slow, due to some distractions and such. Even so, alot has been done, though there's more to do.

As for Kian... my ex, well... I'm slowly getting over him (though i do miss him every now and then) and lately due to some arrangements and pushing by my brother and a 'good' friend of mine... a new guy is in my life.

He's charming, good looking, strong, adorable and pretty much an adventurer in his own way. This guy, apparently is also 3 years younger than me and is my brother's friend. So far it's too soon to know what is going to happen between us... but will wait and see.

I guess that's all for now.
Ja ne

Hopeful Last Semester and events up to date

2009-11-02T00:32:00.003+08:00

Well...
Not to bad,
It's only been about 2 months since my last post.

Needed rejuvenation, relaxation and probably just time off from studying, even if it meant lazing about at home. True I didn't even do much to settle the ideas for my course, but really couldn't do much staying at home where everyone is gloomy, tense and at different brain-wave sync.

Already 2 months plus since we moved into the new house and the old house still needs to be cleared out. It's stressful, and makes me wonder why we moved, though the old house was in a slight dis-repair after we've lived there for nearly 18+ years.

3 months since my break up, though I still miss him, I'm slowly moving on. But the set back would be, my brain feels dead, though I manja with or manjakan my guy friends and the new ones I make, I seem to not react to them as easily as before. As in, normally I fall for guys very easily, lately, it's quite the opposite. Either I'm just picky or still trying pick myself up from the previous one.

Some friends have helped and I thank them for that.

Though the saddest thing would be my grandfather's recent passing. Sure he's in a better place right now and paying time in the alam kubur, but I still miss him. I may not have been as close to him as some of my other family members, but being the most manja in my age group, the pain is worse as I admit I am very clingy.

Now is the starting of the 2nd trimester and it's already the 2nd week. Still my motivation is on the down low and my attitude and personality need patching up. Can't afford to fail again, not this time, as my ambitions are at stake.

I've joined back the Wushu and Emina Japanese Animation club at MMU Cyber. In fact, just got back today from Melaka as we had a Halloween Night trip to A'Famosa's Halloween Party night.

Though it was a tiring time and some of us were un-well for a while during the trip... Overall it was fun and made a few new friends, especially an MMU Melaka junior who's Emina and Anime nickname was 'Hunter', he was a mere 'kitten' with me and was only 18. And though my mind was not set on getting a new guy at the time... This boy had all the qualities (well most of them actually) I looked for in a guy.

He had a Chinese look,was adorable, easy to talk to, manja, pretty good looking, fit and nice to hug. Though I think that, he was already taken. Even so, even having him as an 'adik angkat' is good enough for me as he doesn't have any siblings, just like my 'abang angkat' Eugene.

I guess that's all for now as I need to sleep.
Got class at 9am in the morning and need to chase the lecturers and faculty staff members as for some odd reason, the system won't allow me to register for my subjects. Now I need to apply for the course manually.

Okie...
Oyasumi / Wan an and Good night

Why? What should I do? Stop trying? Why should I?

2009-08-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

It's been half a year since I posted here.
Too many things happening,
Friend's convocation, me failing my Final Year Project, not doing well in Wushu,Singing and pretty much everything.

Other than that, I'm single again and missing him though it was for the best for both of us and our families.

I'm crying again, mostly from confusion, despair and uncertainty.

All I ever wanted was to be a singer, a performer and someone that is loved because I make them happy. But now, I can't seem to do that. I can't even make myself happy.

I'm lost once more, like always.

I love to sing, but many say I'm not good enough and am too emotional. Always being
compared to my younger sister because she's more mature, more beautiful and can do most of the things I wanna do better. Especially singing.

They tell me to accept it and to stop trying. Why?
Just because it's more practical and the most grown-up thing to do?

No way!!!!

They tell me to grow up to stand on my 2 feet, they think I can't do it as I refuse to 'grow-up'.

I'm tired of hearing that and no one understands.
What do u want me to do? Act like an old hag before my time, just like my little sister? NO FRIGGING WAY!!!!!!!!!!

I understand the importance of all this but they don't trust me.

What do I do? What can I do to make this all better?
Wish, dream? Believe in myself? Visualize?

I've watched the movie 'The Secret'. No, not the Chinese movie, but the movie adaptation of the book 'The Secret'.

I want to feel good, I want to think positive, but the environment around me is making me feel otherwise, same goes with the people around me.

Do I not give enough? Do I give too much?

All I can do now is cry my eyes out in sadness, pain, confusion and uncertainty.
What else can I do?

I used to have a nice singing voice, but now, I can't bear to hear myself and be compared to my sister over and over again.

I used to write fan fictions every day and that made my readers smiling every time I read their reviews. Now I can't seem to pen a single story without elaborating them till they make no sense even to me.

I used to paint at least once a week and was good at it even though the poses were copied from other Manga, photos, images or Anime and cartoons. Now I hardly draw let alone paint.

I do absolutely nothing but play games, look at facebook, make a fool of myself, get scolded by my family and friends just because I'm too emotional and fail at everything.

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?????!!!!!!!!!!

I guess that's all for now.
Thank you to all that drop by and sorry if it's all negative emotional stuff again.

Best Regards,
Sea-chan.

Busy Busy Busy, Happy, But why am I crying?

2008-12-23T00:39:00.002+08:00

Well, it has been a long time since I posted anything here.
A very busy semester this has been and tiring at that.

With all the reports and proposals, the Wushu performances, HYJ Wushu Academy International Competition, Dinner & Gathering 2008, Comic Fiesta 2008 and not even time to spend time with my whole family properly without suddenly rushing off.

Also, a few nights ago, a nightmare lingering in my thoughts and has been haunting me for nearly a whole week. Though my mind has tried to soothe it, but for some odd reason my heart is not at peace. It is either a sign of paranoia of my current relationship with my boyfriend, a sign I should trust him more, my whole form is changing or a fact that I'm afraid of change.

Is this all part of growing up? Am I just thinking too much, being too manja or too clingy till I'm afraid of loosing Kian? Whoo boy, this is really getting complicated.

I'll really have to keep myself together if I want to survive after I graduate next year. Also, I'll need to figure out what I really want instead of just sitting here and crying all the time. Next to that, I may need to start praying more often as I haven't been doing so since before the month of Ramadan this year.

Yosh,
Gambatteh and Jia yo and thank you for all who stop by here.
Ja ne and Arigato Gozaimasu :)

Back in Cyberjaya and readjusting to the environment

2008-11-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

Undeniably, it's good to be back in Cyberjaya though moving back to hostel and on the 4th floor at that will take a while to get used to.

Now I see how unfit I really am and will need to back in shape quickly or Master Woo will be making me run more than 10 laps during Wushu. Not only that,there's supposed to be another wushu exam this semester that I only knew about only late last semester.

Going to class was ok today, but I'm not sure how I'm going to survive tomorrow. But no pain no gain. I'm just glad to be back in familiar and yet unfamiliar surroundings again as well as being near my boyfriend.

This is a very busy semester and I hope I'll be able to juggle my proposals, research, project planning and clubs/societies. A very tiring day and still more to come.

But for now, I'll just go with the flow and will try to get as much rest as i can.

That's all for today,
have to wake up early to go for a morning walk with Melissa Ann.

Ja ne and Oyasuminasai

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My Goals and Dreams - What do I do?

2008-10-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

Well, it's nearing my last 2 semesters of University life and I still haven't decided what I really want out of life. Do I wanna devote my self into performing arts full-time or give it up to do finish what I started with Digital Media?

I don't know. Not anymore.
But one thing does still stand, I still want to be a singer and martial artist.
I wish to train harder in Wushu and swimming. Though at the same time, I wish to juggle video making, acting, joining the Young KL Singers again and much more.

For some odd reason, my motivation is low and am definitely addicted to Perfect World online and just lazing about.
All my inspiration blocked and am not sure how to unblock it.

Fear of being laughed at, left alone and disrespected.
Indecisiveness and not being able to fend for myself.
Looks like I spent too long a time at home and it's driving me crazy.

Why am I always crying?
At loss at what I want to do and what I can do.
Thinking too much and sensitive to what others say and do.

Too many household problems that I don't even know where to start and some I don't
think I should reveal, online like this.

I guess the only things I can do at the moment are :
- Practice Wushu harder
- Read more
- Analyse my characters in Perfect World to apply in the D&D sessions
- Write
- Try to draw and make more videos
- Talk to my boyfriend about this

I guess that's all,
To those who stop by and read, thanx for reading

Oyasum-nasai
Good Night
Selamat Malam

Countdown - 2 weeks to go

2008-09-08T08:52:00.003+08:00

Well,
It's the 2nd week of the Puasa Month and 2nd last week till my internship ends.

Today I gave away the original drawing of my digitally painted artwork :

Gave it to Iylia, one of my colleagues from the Accenture team I was assigned to during the Internship period. Was a bit reluctant to part with it, but, no worries, at least i saved it in the computer at home. Also, the most important thing is that she's happy with the gift :)

Editing diagrams again today and awaiting some bit of news from my lecturer, whom said they he may come to visit.

There's also a new guy assigned to the team temporarily. His name is Ivan and will be with the team for about a month. He's pretty good looking and, like Javier and Adrian, he smokes unlike me, Iylia and Wayne.

I guess that's all for today

Thanks for dropping by,

Ja ne

Regards,
Sea Enigma / Skarai Clove / Enima

Obsession, Passion and Confusion

2008-09-04T08:41:00.003+08:00

Like the title says,
I am having several mixed emotions on certain things.
What should or could I do after I've finished my studies or should I carry on studying before I decide to start working?
Do I pursue something which I have been wishing to do all my life or obey my parents and pursue the path they wish and hope I would do?

I admit, I have a slight obsession with performing, whether or not it is my best, as well as reading fantasy novels, graphic novels, comics, drawing/ painting as well as martial arts and swimming, despite being lower than average.

So many paths I could have taken and pursued, but always either pursuing half-way or letting the opportunity slide. Maybe not all, but alot.

Though I do also admit that I wouldn't be where I am, or meet the people I know now if I had not gone through this path. I wouldn't have even met my current boyfriend whom I have been dating for almost 9 months now.

For the things I like to do I've listed below:
- Singing
- Reading
- Writing
- Performing (wushu, dancing(though I'm not that good), acting(need practice)...etc..)
- Play video games (whether on portable consoles,PS2,Computer or online games etc...)
- Baking (cookies, brownies & cakes)
- Painting
- Playing sports (martial arts, swimming, scuba diving & badminton)
- Creating fanvideos or videos

There are many more, but these are the main ones.
Those could be either my interests or my passions or even both.

The confusion lies not only in what I should or could do for the rest of my life, but also with who I would spend my life with.

A little sappy, I know.
Well, I'm happy with my boyfriend though we've been seeing each other rarely since I started my internship and moved out of my apartment in Cyberjaya.But for some reason I'm a tad confused with how the relationship is going.

True he is my first BF and is at least 5 years my senior and my graduated senior in MMU, Cyber. But as much as I care for him, for some reason I feel a bit distant.
Unsure whether I don't spend enough time with him or it's because of my old habit of being very clingy to those familiar around me, or if my feelings towards him are true or not.

But, will wait another year and see where it takes us, despite our religious background differences between our families. He is a Buddhist and I am Muslim.

********** ************ ********

We first met during my foundation year at MMU in the Game Developers club (GDC) in 2004/2005. We weren't close at the time, just acquaintances and he had just graduated in August that year.

In my 2nd year, during the 1st Sem of the Trimester, I met him again after being introduced to the pen & paper RPG replica game of Dungeons and Dragons (D&D) by 2 of my friends whom were in the GDC club and Emina Japanese Animation club.

From there, the crush began as next to my other senior of same faculty, I was the only girl in the game and the group. It was there I started having crushes on my bf and 2 other guys, one within the D&D group (chinese) and the other a temporary wushu member studying at CUCMS in Street Mall, a malay boy.

Long story short, for the year I started playing with them, I somehow got attracted to them more and more. Though most of the time I was either too clingy or just plain blur.

Eventually, after my 21st Birthday party, I confessed my feelings. Shocked I was when he revealed that he was waiting for me to confess after the 2nd year playing D&D with the group.

It became official on the 1st of January after some 'discussion'.

The end. Really long winded and sappy or then again maybe not.

******** ******* ****** ******* ********* ********* **********

OKay alot has been revealed in this post.
Please forgive me if it is very long and alot of things being repeated.

Well,
I guess that's all I have to say for today.

Thank you for all those who have dropped by :) and willing to read my posts

Arigato Gozaimas, Terima Kasih,
Ja ne , See ya

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Internship Countdown to end

2008-09-03T09:11:00.004+08:00

As the title says,
My internship down to its last few weeks, 3 weeks to be more exact.
Within these 3 week I need to :

- Finish Filling in the appropriate forms
- Re-shuffle my singing lessons
- Go to campus to apply for hostel
- Create a simple website for the presentation
- Organize stuff to be brought to campus for the next sem

There are alot of things that I'm looking forward to as well:

- Now is the month of Ramadhan and the Fasting month , can't wait to celebrate Hari Raya Aidilfitri with my family & friends
- Going back to campus for my last few months in Uni
- Going back to Wushu, Aikido and swimming :)
- Participating in clubs and societies
- etc...

Throughout these 3 and a half months, despite the boringness of researching, compiling and organizing data, designing and drawing diagrams I've enjoyed myself.

I admit that I was scared at first, but I seemed to have adapted to the working life and thought of it just like going to school.

Overall, this was a good internship and i hope my CyberP would be just as fun as my Internship with Accenture in Wisma Sime Darby.

That's all for now,

Before I end this post,
to all the Muslims that pass by this blog,
I'm wishing a Selamat Berbulan Puasa / A Happy Month of Ramadhan and
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :)

Take care and
Ja ne ^_^

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One month left , more or less

2008-08-21T12:14:00.001+08:00

Well, time sure does fly.

It's already the 10th week of my internship and I have to start preparing to go back to Cyberjaya.

One of these days before my internship ends, I need to either take a day off or something and go to Cyber to apply for hostel. Really want to stay in Cyber, though it's pretty far from civilisation and extremely pricy.

Also, I can't wait to see my lecturer when he comes for a visit within the next few weeks. Which reminds me... I really need to start on that website and make a good journal on my internship period.

So far... this is what I've done...:

- Researching and compiling data and documents on ITIL (IT Infrastructure Library)

- Learning more of Excel and Powerpoint

- Introduced to a new software called Microsoft Visio

- Meeting, dining and attending meetings with the bosses and big bosses.

- Compiling Meeting Notes / Meeting minutes

- Learning to operate and set up an external projector

- Learnt to multitask (not very well though)

- Attended an Accenture Intern Gathering which was pretty fun

- & ... got to know some really cool people like the vendors from BMC, my colleagues and ...the bosses

That's all i can remember so far.

Next to that... the singing lessons I've attended has really changed the way I see certain songs. But ... will talk more on that another day.

Thx for reading, for those who dropped by.

Ja ne

Internship Time

2008-06-19T08:49:00.002+08:00

Well,
as the title says, I'm now on Internship/ Industrial Training.
It's almost the end of my first week and everything seems to be going pretty well.

The colleagues here are pretty nice, but of course, that's not a reason to let my guard down. Though Accenture assigned me to Sime Darby for a project for my intership, and has nothing to do at all with FCM, I'll just have to make the most of it. Just to make sure I fulfill the 14 weeks of Intership requirements.

Next to that, now I understand how Mister Woo and Bang Chien Hui feels about juggling work and Wushu. I hope I'll be able to do so too. But I'll have to start now and after work.

Atleast start with the lighter ones first then the heavier ones.

That's all for now as I'm currently in the office.

Ja ne ^_^

Exam Time

2008-05-12T19:18:00.001+08:00

Well,
it's exam time this week and I'm semi panicking as studying isn't my best trait
Next to that... I'm even more clueless about what to do with this apartment as I'm moving out after the exams.
I've been living in this house for about 2 years now with 3 (most of the time 2) guys.

Yes, I'm a girl but i live with guys, whom I've known since my foundation year at MMU, Cyberjaya (Multimedia University) which was about 4 years ago. Can't believe it's really been that long already.

A lot of people call me a weirdo, but I've grown used to it. May not be close to my course-mates, but they're nice people all the same. I have to admit, it's been enjoyable all of theses years here at MMU, doing Wushu performances, taking part in events and competitions (wushu, swimming,etc...), the never-ending assignments and the broken relationships amongst good friends.

It has taught me a lot, but I admit, I still have much to learn about society, if i were to survive in the outside world.

That's all for now,
For those having exams...
Jia Yo & Gambatte Kudasai !!!
Good luck and do your best!!!

Ja Ne

Wushu Exam

2008-05-07T02:09:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

*
Wushu Exam 2008 & End of 07/08 training

Just arrived back from the Wushu exam and the last wushu training for this semester and yea 07/08.
All I have to say is that I'm exhausted along with my other friends.

This was what we had to do for both days of exams:

1st Day ( 29th April) :
- Zhi Pen Quan
- Basic Hand & Feet Movement (Chang Quan)
- Basic Kicks (Chang Quan)
- Basic Hand & Feet Movement (Nan Quan)
- Basic Kicks (Chang Quan)

2nd Day (6th May) :
- Theory (Oral)
- Handstand
- Pumping
- Arch Back (front and back)
- Heel Rise
- Fist stand (like pumping but, holding position on 3 chairs)
- Frog Jump
- Race against time up 4 floors (2x)
- Star Jump
- Split (front, left & right)
- Balancing on one leg

I have to admit, as tiring as it was, the 'Effort' felt pretty good. Now in a way... it has inspired me a bit to train a little harder (hopefully won't get distracted by video games and such) .

Well that's all for now, need to take a shower and sleep. Have a presentation in the afternoon.

Oyasumi nasai( Selamat Malam & Good Night)

Annoying as it is, I'm back for now

2008-02-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone,
Long time no see.

I realize I've not been here for quite some time and really should come more often, but that will have to depend.

A lot has happened since I last posted and there's more to come.

For Instance....

- I have a boyfriend now and care for him a lot
- My new computer is online and am playing many games
- Made some new friends and catching up with some old ones (not that old)
- Wushu has developed a special place in my heart and hope to go further into it
- Took part in several performances and now need to refresh old routines
- Assignments are piling in again, but are not a problem

What is to come....

- Going for internship / industrial training on June 16th 08 (very nervous)
- The Wushu exam and competition
- GACC ( Game Anime Comic Convention ) at MMU Melaka
- New equipment for Wushu Club
- Emina Japanese Animation club Port Dickson trip
- Going for a Cameron Highlands trip with friends

So many things happening and going to happens till I'm unsure what to do or where to start.

The weather here is unpredictable as usual and gives a semi 'lazy' air about it.
But the good thing is... a nap or sleep for everyone.

That's all for now.
Till Next Time,

Ja ne

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New Year and New challenges 2008

2008-01-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

Well, it's the new year and man, it's coming on so fast.

Indeed haven't come here in far too long. Hope to make up for it, minus the obstacles of games, my relationship with my WUshu family and assignments and ... well...won't say it now.

Gonna have to really work this coming sem, both in studies and in wushu.
Next to that... have to be ready for my internship, and I'm pretty scared :(

Maybe i should apply for a part time job, or maybe not.
Other than that... I hope all these activities won't keep me from visiting my family, especially since my grandfather became bed-ridden due to the stroke last November T_T

I still have a lot to learn and re-learn, plus i need to learn to be more aware of my own personality, especially towards my loved ones.

MY OBJECTIVES

- To do better academically and in swimming and wushu
- To get fit
- Have better knowledge in softwares like Sony Vegas, Sound Forge, Adobe Photoshop and Adobe Flash.
- To do more writing and artworks
- To have a better relationship with friends and family

I guess that's all for now :)

Thanx for reading and Take care everyone.

Oh yeah,

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR to everyone

Very Tired and yet Energetic

2007-07-20T02:47:00.000+08:00

The weeks are going by faster and faster as this 1st sem passes. Come to think of it, so is the year. It seems that the more time I waste or misuse makes me feel either lazier or regretful.

This needs to be fixed and I feel so tired. The more I waste the more weary and lazy i get. I may be tired, but a weird surge of energy seems to push me one (especially when it comes to non-'work'related stuff.

Weird I would say.

Anyway, as not to continue anything 'Emo' , I state some exciting events of this week.

- The Anime Club Annual General Meeting (AGM)
- Theatre Class
- Wushu Club Annual General Meeting (AGM)

It was fun during the Anime / Emina AGM , despite the lack of people. We watched videos and had the long awaited Treasure Hunt
which made us run all over campus.

Made new friends and was nominated as Assistant Sponsorship a High Comm. in the club.

The night was pretty enjoyable and after the AGM we went to 'yamcha' at Oldtown- Kopitiam cafe not far from campus.

Then there was the Theatre class, my Co-curriculum subject I took for this semester. It was cool so far despite being under Ms. Nell's hard teachings. It's fun, just like Kak Ija said it would be, but it's a lot of work.

Next was the Wushu AGM.

I must say that there is not much to be said as training was done like usual and this time I went to AIkido before training this time.

Like last years AGM I made some new friends and went for the interview to be a commitee member to te club. It doesn't matter if I get the position as maybe it's about time I concentrated more on my work.

I guess that's all as I'm getting really sleepy, despite having my hair still wet from the shower just now.

Ja ne

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Very long time but what can i do

2007-07-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

I realise it's been quite some time since I posted anything up here.

All I can say is that nothing much has happened except a few events. Namely : -

Last weeks -

- Wushu Orientation Night
- Talk by Group CEO Dato' Abdul Wahid Omar
- Club Registration week for Year 2007/2008 + performance
- Japanese Bon Odori Festival at Panasonic Sports Centre ( Matsushita Stadium) in Shah Alam

Next to that are the usual assignments and submissions, nothing else special.

For this coming week theres a few AGMs (Annual Gathering Meetings) for most of the clubs and societies.

I'll be going for the ones for Wushu Club (this Thursday) and the one for the EMINA club (this Wednesday). But of course assignments have to come first.

3 months gone

2007-04-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

Yeah, 3 or more months have gone by and so far, I don't think I've fulfilled any of my new years resolutions T_T

Even so, I'll keep on trying as if I want to succeed I'll have to keep going and not give up. Sure... I seem to be sacrificing alot of my assignment time for other things, but I'm trying to not complain and to live with it.

I've even started taking in requests from people to draw and paint for them (well one anyway). Other than that, I have a lot of plans for this year and I hope I can fulfill them before the year on the month is through.

So far, despite the fact that I hardly ever paint lately, but I like the results of my artworks at the end of the day. Though my sister says otherwise and prefers my shading technique to my painting. But I won't complain as other people have their own preferences on things.

Anyway, above would be the paintings which I have done so far this year and hopefully will do more soon.

Other than that, I've gone to the max with Wushu. My stamina may not be up to the level but I have to volunteered to follow a performance with the outside Wushu members and the 'HYJ Wushu Academy' where my Sifoo teaches.

The performance will be at Dataran Merdeka on the 28th of April and I heard the Yg. Dipertuan Agong will be present as well. I'm excited as well as terrified as I'll be practicing with people more senior and better than me and will be performing in front of a V.V.V.VIP.

But I have faith that all will go well as I will not give up.
That's all for now,
I'll try to keep everyone posted on the events and I thank everyone who dropped by my blog all this while ^_^ :)

Thanks and TTFN (Ta Ta For Now)

Sea Enigma

Long time and what do i do about it?

2007-01-17T15:16:00.000+08:00

It most definitely has been a long time since I posted here.

Too long in fact and som much has happened.

- moved from Kak Fung Yen's apartment to Yong's and Sharil's.
- had more assignments to deal with
- MMU Wushu Intergration Day is coming soon
- There's the Hou Yuan Jia Wushu dance still in commence
- There's the Swim Club - 'Swimming Carnival' (hopefully)
- Have Dungeons and Dragons RPG sessions and Utpoia in my free time now

Basically there's alot going on and I'm eitherl azing about or just not doing anything about what i need to do.

It has to change soon or I won't be fulfilling any of my New Year's resolutions or keeping to my promise to my aunt (Mak Enda).

Whatever it is, I have to start soon and get rid of my fears.

I guess that's all for now.

C ya soon.

Dad's & Mr Woo's B'day & still no word about my monitor T_T

2006-10-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

Well looks like an 'interesting' day today, despite the temper tantrums and lack of sleep.
But the lack of sleep was worth it as I managed to finish a great painting of Batman for my dad's birthday today (actually yesterday looking at the time) 11/10/1959.

Sadly can't show it as my PC monitor hasn't come back yet from my mom's colleague. Had some problems with it, and it may have short-fused back in Cyber.
but once it comes back will be sure to post it along with a few more artworks hopefully.

Besides that, just got to know that on the same day, it's also my Wushu Master's birthday, too :0
Looks like one more gift art about to be popped into the oven.

Well... I think that's all and I may be online for a while.

To all who's birthday is the 11th of october, I wish you all a HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!! and good night.

Selamat Berbulan Puasa (even if it's a little late for that ^^; )

2006-10-12T01:16:00.000+08:00

Well it's that time of year again and we're in the middle of the fasting month.

Besides that, exams are over and now it's the holidays :w00t: .
Though... I can't seem to understand why I don't feel any difference unless it's just me.

The next sem will be starting soon, more or less within a month and like my adoptive brothers and sisters told me, time to start anew. Even if it does take time to achieve ^^; ;P .

Well, was glad that I went to my grandmother's Kenduri yesterday as was glad to be around family again :D . Have been away from them for quite a while, but not as bad as my cousin in New Zealand though .

As for my plans for this holidays... I've not fully decided yet, but...
this would be a vague list of what I might do:

1. Visit my 'sister' in Seremban (haven't seen her in years ^^; )

2. Spend time with my family members

3. Try to train my Wushu ( stamina and muscle building along with smoothening my routines)

4. Practice some drawing

5. Playing Video games

6. Finishing or composing stories and fanfictions

7. Catch up on some readng material (Books, Comics and such)

8. Learning more on creating AMVs

That should be it and may update it before the holidays are over :) .

well I guess that's all,
For all MMU students I would like to wish you all GOOD LUCK to those still having exams.
For those whom already finished, I wish you all Happy Holidays and as for all Muslims .

Selamat Berpuasa ,& Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin :D

Head spins, juggling too many tasks and emotions

2006-09-12T14:22:00.000+08:00

ok... let me see... Bangkok, Class and Combined training

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 16, 2006, 3:43 AM
Right...

Latest events of My life:

- Trip for 2 nights in Bangkok with mom:

Was in Bangkok for about from wednesday to friday last week with my mom. We went in the morning to the Low Cost Carrier Terminal (LCCT) by bus and from there we took an Air Asia flight to Bangkok.

Once in Bangkok, we checked into the 'Ambassador Hotel'. The room we stayed in was cozy, despite the slight tinge of old about it as we stayed in the old wing.

Being the first day and first time i was there, we , qoute from my mom went "...shooopping..." .

Went to many interesting places while I was there and even went for foot and thai massages.

Places I went and what I did:

- MBK shopping center
- Chatuchak Market (on Friday before coming home)
- Grand Palace and Wat Phra Kaeo
- went on a choa phraya express boat ride , on a tuk-tuk, the skytrain , the subway and a river taxi
- Mount Gold (or was it Golden Mount)
- tasted 3 types of Dairy Queen 'Blizzard' ice cream (Mocha Almond Fudge,
Brownie supreme (or something like that) and Extreme Chocolate ^_^
:D)
- Jim Thompson's
- Patpong Night market
- Suan Luam Night Bazaar

As my time there was quite limited, that was all we could do there and I must admit, I enjoyed myself :) :XD: (despite some fuses from my mom ^^; ).

That should be all for my trip to Bangkok and will add more if I remember anything else ;P .

MMU Convocation 2006:

The paintball I took part in was actually part of the Convocation week of this year.

Was a little disappointed that the Convocation week clashed with our mid-term break as a lot of events were missed. But even so, I was glad I managed to attend the last day as it was then many of my friends and seniors graduated.

Would miss them all alot and hope to meet them all again in the future :) .

- Class continues as usual :

Not much can be said about this as classes are still the same to me.
Besides that, we're all as sleepy/ tired as ever and thinking that the mid-term break was too short ^^; .

More assignments are coming up and still havent figured out on what to do for Visual Programming :tears:.

- This weekend, Wushu Combined training with MMU Malacca:

Yeah, another combined training with MMU Malacca Campus here at MMU Cyber. It would be great to meet them all again, had fun during the last combined training with them last semester.

That's all I have to report till the next time.
ok, gtg and good night / good morning ^^; .

Long time no post *sigh*

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 9, 2006, 12:50 AM

Man... it's been a long time and I must say alot has happened.

But as not to go into too much detail, I'll make a long story short.

All events include:

- Bon Odori event trip with Emina Club
- Kung Fu Night at Tar College - Wushu Club
- weekly rpg sessions, club activities and meetings with friends;
and last but not least,
- Paintball Tornument at MMU Convofest with friends

Now it's the middle of the mid-term break and there's still alot to be done, which include :

- Assignments and Projects
- Club activites , proposals and responsibilities
- Drawing and Writing (still needs improvement)
- Household chores (in the apartment especially) ;
& most importantly
- better time management

That would be all to report as I have to go.
Till next update ,
Ja Ne

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Er... minor update ...
I'm currently not in Malaysia at the moment. Am in Bangkok with my mom, but will be back online on saturday evening ^^; .

Gomen for not posting this earlier.
will make it up to you somehow :cries: .

That's all folks (if not the cybercafe people will charge me more than I expect ^^; )

Ja ne,
till I'm back in Cyber .

Head spins, juggling too many tasks and emotions
Journal Entry: Fri Sep 8, 2006, 2:47 AM

:yawn: Well haven't updated since my trip to Bangkok, so might as well do it now while I'm still sane and awake :yawnstretch: .

On top of all of these events, assignments are still at large and really need my attention ASAP .

Latest news:

1. Went to Genting Highlands with , , and the ever so lovable Rekka :) . Alot of unfortunate events happened but of course like everything... every cloud has a silver lining and i really need to control my emotions better ^^; .

Had fun despite everything though, but I really should keep a reminder about
keeping a back-up stash as well as saving my funds better ;P . Anyway, all that is in the past and I have other things to worry about now.

2. Lots of birthdays this month I need to take note of including my sister's , my two grandmothers and a few of my friends from the YKLS (miss them dearly :tears: )

Sigh... My sister just turned 13 just a few hours ago and my grandmother (mother's mom) will be turning 83 (or was it 84) and... even my vector graphics lecturer just turned 23 on Monday this week.

My other grandmother will be turning around 70 something (lost count) next saturday and sadly i won't be able to attend :cries: ( reason will be posted shortly).

Seriously need to set a list of birthday gifts now ^^; .

3. Next week on the 16th of September, I'll be participating in a Wushu Competittion along with a few other Wushu CLub members at USM, Kelantan.

We'll be taking an overnight bus there, on the 15th, and hopefully we'll be in ship shape to perform that day. Busses may be comfortable, but up to a certain extent
:yaen: :doi: .

It's my first ever competition and I'm looking forward to it (despite being terrified stiff :nirvana: )

4. Besides that, more sad things have come about recently such as the passing of Steve Irwin the energetic host of the much loved 'Crocodile Hunter' .

He will be missed greatly by his family, his friends and all who love him.

Though... that's not the only thing in my mind.

One of my aunts, Aunty Niki, has been emmited to the hospital in the Radiotherapy ward where I was once emmited in (want to know my story, send me a note nicely). :tears: :cries:

Seeing her in that state brought tears to my eyes and even if i tried to pull them back they kept on flowing. My uncle John was distraught besides his soberness. As for kak Suzanne and bang Alex , I think the sword would cut them quite badly too. ( i call my cousins bang or kak was taught since young).

Why is it that all my family members are going one by one? I just hope she pulls through successfully and atleast lives till bang Alex gets married or even longer than that :( .

I guess that's all or I'll be too distraught to finish this storyboard.

Ja ne and thanx for reading.

Razer: Don't cry Enima :cuddle: :petting:
Enima: Trying to Razer but it keeps on coming :tears:.
Razer: She'll be alright, just pray for her :smooch:

Dante: Hey... what's wrong? *looks at above post* Oh, don't cry.
Vergil: Why is she crying , Dante?
Dante: Look up, Verge.
Vergil: Is that all? I thought it's because she fought with Razer :mwahaha:.

Enima: :cries:
Razer & Aerith: Vergil, you're not helping !!!!
Cloud: Come on. Vergil, since you made things worse, go cheer her up :katana: .

Vergil: If I have to in front of Razer. *goes to Enima* Please stop crying :petting: she'll be alright :hug:.

Enima: thanx everyone. :sniff: :(

(thought I'd put a little humour ^^; ;P )

ps: will add pics a little later ^^;;

Late as usual at posting current events ^^;;

2006-07-25T04:49:00.000+08:00

Again as usual, I now post some info of the life I've been living for the past month or so.

Well one event that would interest everyone would of course be the Bon Odori event
and trip to Port Klang for a group assignment for my course.

The trip for the project was interesting to say the least and though I may not be the best group mate Ijust hope my attitude would be better soon. Anyway, it should turn out well, but still early to say.

Next would be the Bon Odori event 2 weeks ago. I went with the EMINA club at MMU Cyber and was glad I went as well as can't believe what I've been missing before. Had loads of fun and ate my fill :) :D .

There were lots of food stalls and such till I couldn't choose which I liked better.
Managed to eat some sushi, octopus balls , tried a bit of my friend's curry and japanese ice ^_^ (yummy) .

Besides that, joined in the traditional dances and met my DA friends there.

That's all to report for now, getting blurer and blurer by the minute @_@ .
good night.

DA group -1
Saku Shooga
Remains of my yummy dessert :D
Ivan Aizat & Ewa
Cloud & Aerith out of Costume
Emina - 2
Emina 1
Ivan and his Udon

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Sadness, why sadness, this is not the really me T_T

2006-05-05T02:22:00.000+08:00

Well... looks like my fears have come to past and now all I'm doing is crying every day and every night. What for and why, that's the problem.
I've not been who I should be and do what i should do till i suffered the consequences. I know I've not been trustworthy and such for this sem. i've realised that I've grown distant of myself (my real self) and need to change once more as I'm not giving up.

yeah, the same old babble as last time but i guess when this sem is over it's time for another big change. Others will be the judge of what i become and hopefully i don't have to elongate this funny problem over and over agian as by now, many are probably pissed with me for being such a monster.

That's probably all I have to rant out this time for the bad stuff.

For the good things, this holiday, I have a trip to Singapore to look forward to as well as long awaited scuba diving training which I've missed for at least 4 years.
will get my licence this time and when I do, I'll go diving more (hopefully)

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Ok... some things are just long overdue ^_^;;;.

2006-04-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

well... Like title says, there are alot of things overdue, besides my assignments like photos and such from various occasions. For instance, the MMU Rakan Muda Swim Carnival 2006, along with a few other past photos i never got to post.

Alot has happened to me lately till all that drove me on was an inner most monster that had been sealed away long ago. But I've realised things now and thought that it's about time that I recollect the pieces of me that shattered to remold it into something better.

Hmm... I'm sure that none of you would like to hear all that sort of nonsense and stuff about myself. So... here are some things that you may enjoy better.
Here are the latest photos I've taken within this sem.

Ok maybe not all but i guess just for the Swim Carnival for now .

Swimmers 1
Azlan, Zaim & Lawrence
Ken Li , Yee Yong & Me
Ken-li and me
Swimmers-1

(sorry, the pics were quite big so if you want to view them... click on the links ^^; sorry for the inconveniences)

What am I supposed to do?

2006-04-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

Ok, I admit, I'm very confused with myself right now.
I'm a childish person and nobody likes that (or so some say). I have very odd habits,
lazy to do work (especially since last sem) and too afraid to show my true potential in everything.
Is there really something wrong with me? What happened to me that I molded this insecure personality? Is it stress, paranoia or just plain me?

What do I lack , hmm.. that's simple, I lack confidence, belief in myself and doubt that I can do things as well as others but in my own way. This feeling is so familiar as it's the same feel I had when I frist joined, Kolej Tuanku Ja'afar, when I was form3.

According to my current group of friends, they said it's because of my style and probably because I crave attention. Maybe I do, but why? what did i do to become this way? Why did I bring back the 'me' that I closed up years before?

When I first started Multimedia University, Cyber, I admit I was nervous, but after a few months, I enjoyed myself and eventhough I'm weak in assignments, I hardly skipped class. Besides that, I always had a smile on my face no matter the consequences.

But look at me now, I'm become quiet, I mope and don't concentrate in my work till my group members don't wanna talk to me. I've become useless and can't think for myself, or atleast that's what happens nowadays.

I guess they were right, sooner or later I'll be drawn away from them, but i didn't realise it was for real, till i can't even share a joke with them T_T. They're a good
bunch of people and know what's best for me, but why am I finding it hard to believe them?

Do I or do I not have to change? I was happy-go-lucky and would always find a way to brighten someones day which would in the end brighten mine. But why am I so lost now?

what am I supposed to do?

I know what I must do, but the big step is just so hard to take and I fear of getting misjudged (as I always do). Eventhough I'm always confronting people, in truth,I'm afraid of them. I trust too easily and sometimes give false hope.

Lately I've been anything but happy-go-lucky, I've become my the opposite side that I never wanted to venture to.

There has got to be a way to get back my good side, but if i have to do it, I need to get it fast. Despite the fact i have lots of assignments, (which I have to get done anyway) I need extra curricular activities. I remember being the one whom does everything and always manages to keep her studies on a moderate level.

I have to somehow get that girl back and for now, that would be my goal.

I know, I know, assignments are important, too. But... without that vibe, I'll never be able to do my assignments at the level it was before.

I guess that's all I have to say this time and I hope I'll achieve my goal.

As a message to all that may come across this blog,

Please stay on the right track or you'll suffer. Keep smiling and the best way to brighten your day (though you may not believe it) is to brighten other's day.
You are what you are and if you were to change, make sure you don't stray too far from who you are.

(Hahaha... there I go again, forgive me if I'm talking nonsense ^^;;; :D :S)

long time no see and lots of assignments T_T.

2006-04-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

Well, now it really has been a while since I came here. Nothing much has changed except for a lot of assignments and other activities. As of late, I rejoined Wushu, Swimming Club and took part in the Cross-Cultural Pageant.

All was fun but now, working time is limited due to not thinking ahead and other reasons. Despite that, I've been working on my fantasy fiction which at the moment is called 'Kulania' but it's in the works. Sadly when I reformated my pc, all 25 pages worth of work was lost T_T and now I have to re-write it all over again. I count myself lucky as eventhough that was lost, the original copy which I wrote in a book was still safe, but many new ideas went down the drain.

Nevermind, I will re-write it and will make it better than ever. Besides that, I've been delaying alot of my fanfictions as well as fanart. Once the sem is over I'm gonna have to really finish them and maybe practice some long neglected games and softwares.

There's nothing much left to say really , but that on the 28th of this month, I'll be joining the "Silhoutte Talent Time'. Besides that, I'll be doing the usual assignments and such. Hopefully I'll be able to really sleep some day as my body clock aint how it's supposed to be, eventhough I'm one of the background/ sleeping members of my group.

ok... ok...that's all for now and hopefully soon I'll get my rythm back.
Till next time,
Ciao !!

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Wushu Intergration Day !!!! Sugoi Sugoi !!! ^_^

2006-03-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday was the 'Wushu Integration' Day at Multimedia University, Melaka.

The ones present were, Multimedia University, Melaka (the host), Multimedia University, Cyberjaya (the brother university), UCSI (University College Seday International), Tengku Abdul Rahman College (TAR College), Sekolah Menengah Pay Fong and Chin Woo Wushu Association (a few representatives atleast).

It was a fun-filled day and we played alot of games with involved groups. Some ended quite painfully but at the same time we all laughed it off as we enjoyed ourselves.

After the opening ceremony by the head of Melaka Wushu Club, the Head of Multimedia University (if I'm not mistaken) and the Master of Chin Woo, the main events started.

Yup it was the much feared performances and we all did our best (eventhough we all nearly tripped over the stage carpet set for us to perform on ^^;).

It was quite cool and managed to get most of it on tape using my dad's old videocam with the help of a friend. Some photos were also taken and I'll post them up on my weblog ASAP :D.

Once that was over, we all had to do Wushu stunts demonstrated by the best club members from each club :cries:. It was slightly embarrasssing especially for those whom weren't so good with Wushu or a few whom just rejoined ^^;.

But even so, we laughed and consoled each other as friends, even if it was for a day :D :XD:.

By the end of the day, we were all exhausted and gained a few friends or revived a few friendships for some . Even if there were embarrasssing moments, they were all part of memories shared and the bonds made on that day.

I hope we all meet again and that we will all do better the next time around :w00t: :D (me included ;P).
That's all for now, till next time, bye :wave: :sprint:.

Photos and such will be posted up soon ^_^;;;.

cousin's wedding :)

2006-01-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

Well finally Abang Amir is married and I wish him all the best. I'm sure Abang Amir will be a good husband to Kak Aida and now i wonder how many kids they'll have :P. He is the youngest of four siblings and all four of them had equally taken care of me ever since i was a baby.
I love them all and always take care of their kids (I think I may have spoiled them as much as my aunt ^_^;;; (their grandmother)). Anyway, when i find the time I'll babysit them either way, even if I have to do so 5 at a time :P.

Ok that's all for now. As for photos, they're on their way ^_^ ;;;.

Cousins

practice

Kompang

dancers-1
Dancers-2

Dancers 3

Dancers4

Bang Ilyas & Bang Iska

Arrival -1

Arrival 2

Bride & Groom

Bride & Groom-2

great time at CF.

2005-12-20T04:30:00.000+08:00

Meow :),
last weekend was the 'Comic Fiesta 2005' at Sekolah Sri Sedaya.
It was great fun and before we went, me and stayed over at kak 's house.

I'm glad to have been able to help her and kak Divine with the doujins (I didin't do much really ^^;) but I had fun and did some shopping at CF :D.

There were so many people whom I bumped into and I was so surprised to see my junior from KTJ (kolej tuanku ja'afar) there as well as a few more people. I even got to meet the friends I met during MMU's 'Anime Week '05' earlier this year, especially the one that helped carry me out of the multipurpose hall when my foot got sprained ;p ^^;. I was glad to see her again, but i was a little sad that i didn't get to see a few others from the Anime Week :cries:.

But even so, I hope to see them again during the next 'MMU EMINA Anime Week' :w00t:.

Selamat Hari Raya 2005 !!!

2005-11-08T02:01:00.000+08:00

Oh right, I'm a little late writing this as 'Hari Raya' was 3 days ago, but no matter, it's the 4th day .

Well, I'm glad to say that I enjoyed this year's 'Raya' as many of my cousins whom I haven't seen in years came back to see me . I'm also surprised that one of them still thinks I was promary school she left behind around 4-6 years ago . Really missed her and finally I get to see her daughter whom I've only heard about but not met.

Since we are such a big family, , we all recieved alot of 'Duit Raya' in green packets and strangely, my adoptive chinese mother also got into the season, but gave a red packert to me and my siblijgs .

She looked pretty and she brought along her family with her to the open house at my grandma's house ( my mom's mother ). It's coincidental that her kids as well as me and my sibs are all the same age. Other than that, She and her eldest daughter , Jenny, were with me in the hospital when I was 2 years old. So me and Jenny go way back as we underwent the same treatment for the same sickness. We've been together ever since then .

Anyway, back to the celebration, this year's open house was not as big as the ones we had 3 years before as quite a number of my family membes were out station . Some because of work/ education and some because of marriage. But it doesn't matter as we can't have everything .

Well, that's all for now and here are a few photos of the first 2 gays. There aren't many now, but I'll tryto add more, later .

---> Here's me, My ex-roomie, my Wushu buddy and my cousin.

----> my parents, grandparents (dad's side) my sibs and me .

---> me in my second traditional outfit a blue 'Kebaya'.

---> me , my sibs and a few cousins (from dad's side).

Sparde & Eva : My, my, you look pretty in purple, child. It suits you fine .

Enima: thx , Uncle Sparda , Aunt Eva . My fav. aunt got it for me .

Razer: Ihave to agree with them * Enima*, you look very cute . You look extra nice in the blue one , too .

Enima: Stop trying to make me blush will you * Razer*.

Razer : Well... that's my job, isn't it * Enima:*.

Enima : * Razer*, yeah right .

Cloud and Aerith : Nice photos and from what you told us before you have a big family .

Enima: Yeah, real big, too big to describe.

Sephiroth : How many exactly? .

Loz: Try us .

Enima : ok... on my mom's side, my mom has 13 brothers and sisters as well as a whole lot of cousins whom I hardly know of. For my dad, he has an older brother and 2 younger sisters with also a whole bunch of cousins whom i hardly know. If you think that's big, that's not even counting my cousins and my neices and nephews or my other extended family members .

Sephiroth, Loz, Kadaj, Yazoo, Dante, Vergil and everyone else : ....Whoa, that's huge !!!!

Enima: Yeah, I must admit that I'm surprised myself .

Razer: but it wil get bigger and bigger every year * Enima* .

Enima :yeah

Dante: I'm really impressed . Hey dad, is our family big, too?

Sparda : Er... I'm not really sure , son.

Vergil: Hmm... I just realised that your blue kebaya's design is similar to my coat. Were you by any chance thinking of me when you bought it .

Razer: yeah... it does look somewhat similar.

Enima: Not really. The other designs and colours didn't look appealing or suit me .

Vergil : Darn... -

Kadaj: But you did get us some green packets, right

Enima : Er... not many, though, btu I hope it's ok .

Sephiroth : no it's not and now you have to pay the price.

Kadaj: Hey calm down , seph, it is their holiday.

Sephiroth : alright, i was just gonna give her a pat on the back.

Enima & Razer: heheh yeah right. Anyway , SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI to you all .

Back from Tokyo , Japan and it will soon be 'Hari Raya' !!!

2005-11-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

*Yawn...* Can't believe or understand why I'm so tired. Must be fatigue from the trip ;P. Anyway, finally finished editing and uploading selected photos from the trip :phew:. Took a whole day and strangely I was yawning the whole day today.

Well, the trip was quite enjoyable and too short I might add as there was so much to see but so little time :tears:. Since I had limited funds, too, I didn't really get to buy many souveniers for my friends eithe :cries: or get as many photos (for an unknown reason).

Other than that, on the first day, I went on a tour and when it ended, I had to find my way back to the hotel (The ANA Hotel) on my own. Luckily the tourist guide , Yuki-san, helped me find my way by showing me which subway line to take. After some difficulties of taking a wrong line, buying a ticket and trying to figure out which tunnel or line leads to where, I managed to reach the hotel within an hours time safe and sound :phew:.

Seriously was an experience of a lifetime and maybe I'll live there in Japan one day (not sure yet though ;P). For some odd reason, Tokyo reminded me alot of my home in Malaysia ^^;. Yeah, call me crazy but it's true ^^; ;P :D.

Met a friend of my father's a sweet and exciting lady (Mrs. Sato) whom brought us all the way to Yamanakako (near Mt. Fuji) to one of her daughter's (Yoko-san) cabin and met up with them for lunch. Yoko-san and her husband Naki-san had an adorable daughter (Megumi-chan) whom reminded me alot of my favourite nieces.

Anyway, I guess that's all I have to report and I hope you all like the photos I've selected eventhough some didn't turn out so well ^^;. Well here they are , enjoy :).

----> Asakusa Temple, the area around it and Nakamise shopping street------<

----< Yamanakako, Mrs. Sato, Yoko & Megumi, Me and my mom ---->

----> Imperial Palace grounds & Tokyo Tower----> (not really much to see as I took a lot of trees ^^;)

Razer: *:hug: :smooch: Enima* So good to have you home .

Eva & Sparda : Welcome back, kiddo :) :aww:. Glad you had a good trip.

Enima ::blushes: Thanx .Sorry for not bringing much gifts back ^^; :(.

Eva : It's alright, as long as you're back safe and came back with some memories :) :aww: :D.

Sephy, Loz, Yazoo & Kadaj : :paranoid:, well atleast you got us some sweets and looks like you managed to get some drawing done.

Enima: Er... yeah, but I've not finished with them yet :blush: ^^;.

Vergil :Well, get on with it then :katana:... as it's about time you got something done.

Dante: Hey, give her a break Verg as she's still fatigued from the plane ride. Do I have to remind you that you missed her :poke: :D.

Vergil ::paranoid: Do you have a death wish , dear brother.

Enima, Razer, Eva, Sparda, Sephy, Loz, Kadaj & Yazoo: ^^; Won't they ever quit?

Enima: Since it's almost 'Hari Raya' my family and I (as well as other muslims) have a few more days of fasting .

So... again I wish those whom are muslim 'Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri' and 'Maaf Zahir Batin' .

Going to Japan on a Puasa Month !!!

2005-10-25T12:26:00.000+08:00

Oooo...Kkkk...
At the end of this month (on the 26-29th if not mistaken. Will update later ;P), I'll be going to Japan with my mom for a few days.

My mom is going on a business trip to Tokyo and will be bringing me along as I'm the only one on holiday. Sadly, she won't be going on tours with me so I'll be going on the tours on my own :tears: :cries: in a foreign country ^^;.

I'm sure I'll have a good time and will make sure to take lots of photos as well as hopefullly get some souveniers for some friends.

Honestly , I'm a little frightened at the fact that I'll be going on tour alone, but I just hope that there will be a few Malaysians or atleast someone I could talk to, to hang around with. But all I know is, I hope to be fasting during the trip as from what my friend told me, it's hard to find food there ^^; (other than that it's quite awkward if i don't fast as there may be a few Malays fasting on tour).

I guess that's all for now and will update later if anything else comes up :) :aww:.

Razer: I'm sure you'll be fine *:hug: Enima*

Enima: I sure hope so :blushes: :) .

Sparda & Eva : Hope you have a good time :aww: .

Dante: And don't forget to buy us gifts :D.

Vergil: Yeah... or you'll be begging me for mercy :katana: :mwahaha: :plotting:.

Sephiroth, Loz, Yazoo & Kadaj : Take care over there and don't forget us either :wave: ;P.

Enima & Razer : Ok.... ^^; Will do.

Divine & Enima: we wish everybody ... Selamat Berpuasa dan Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin :D :aww:

*******************

Before I forget, on the first week of the Puasa month I got careless and my phone was stolen by a friend. I only know him as Hafiz (have an old photo of him but must look for it). He's short now, thin (sort of), has an almost squeaky voice and I have known him since Primary school. The phone that was stolen was a Nokia 3220 and it was given to me by my grandmother.

Why I want to remember this, I have no clue, but who knows it may come in handy.

Anyway... that won't stop me from enjoying myself in Japan or ruin my Hari Raya with all of my family members ( i mean all 30 over cousins, 11 sets of aunties and uncles, some friends and more or less 10 to 11 nieces and nephews ^^; ).

Ok... That's all for now and again I wish all the Muslims....

SELAMAT BERPUASA
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

FCM (Faculty of Creative Multimedia) Beta trip 2005 !!!!!!!!

2005-09-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

Oo...KKK.... We just got back from the 'FCM MDP1113 Beta Trip 2005' yesterday and ai... was it tiring. Maybe that's why I was always in a bad mood and didn't really get much sleep either.

It was fun and all, but it was the painting and the rain that was bothersome. We went to Cameron Highlands and we stayed at hotel 'Equatorial' which was at the very peak of the mountain. It was freezing but on some parts of the day it was tolerable :).

The view was great and even from the balcony of our room we could see the next town :D. There were many strawberry farms, flower nurseries, honey farms as well as vegetable farms around which sold fresh strawberries, vegetables, honey and plants.

There was quite a variety of flowers, cactuses, vegetables and products which could not be gotten in the city :). There was also the 'Boh' tea factory and plantation nearby which is worth a visit to tourists.

As we stayed at the hotel, alot of activities were held other than just doing work.
We had group performances (me and my friends were in group 18) (we did a show called 'The Fairy and the Puppets'), lucky draw, prize giving and free time to do shopping.

In my group, we made costumes out of newspapers and most of the group members started early in making them as me and my two roomies were asleep from 6 something pm to 12:30 am or so and only started at 1am something.

Once we started, we worked hard and finished only at around 4-5 something am or so.
After we were done, we cleared up the place for a rehearsal.

The characters were , a fairy (our group leader), a robot, a cat (my roomie , Kak Divine), a hawaiian dancer, a ballerina ( me :P(used to be a ballerina when I was younger)), a queen (my other roomie, Kak JulianaVenus), a mummy and a joker/clown.

Once were done, we cleared our costumes and went back to our rooms to get ready for breakfast which was at 7am-10am.

After breakfast, we started painting our landscape paintings. After a while, we were interrupted by rain, which was so heavy that we had to clear up and retreat to our rooms. It was then we were forced to finish them up without reference.

The third day was warmer and brighter. It was on this day we went to do our shopping. We went to the nearest town, which was Brinchang to do some shopping and after that we did the rest at a nearby market near our hotel.

We continued to paint our other paintings back at our room once we returned from shopping.

On this night, we had the lucky draw and prize-giving as well as the buffet dinner.
There were a few guest performances but only one didn't show, which was a performance by one of the lecturers :(.

On the last day, we had a critique session by the lecturers and after that we were allowed to pack as well as go for some last minute shopping. During breakfast, we had a singer whom stayed at the hotel or somewhere else that does daily performances every night, sing for us as we ate. He looked quite young and like he was from the Phillipines ( was quite cute, too).

He sang for us and for some reason, he clinged to our area and kept glancing at our table (where there was only me, kak divine and kak ju). He even told us that some the songs he was to sing for us were composed by him while in College. Even the head cook implied that we should special request a song, but we were too bashful :P and blushing, too.

Well I guess that's all the main bits. there was a photo session before boarding the busses (which were handled by some guards (one's name was Zack (why do I bother to remember him actually ? Maybe I was childish when getting my camera back from him) )

I guess that's all ... oh wait.. there's one last thing I can't forget. It's the bumpy ride up and down the highlands. It was so bumpy and rickety-rockety that some of us were thrown forward or backwards during the whole ride.

Well... That's all folks and now here are the photos...:

The great view :D :

The sky:

A few sunsets:

Some flowers :) :

My friends :

Me in costume ( I look silly and chubby (i guess I do need to lose weight)):

Our lecturer Che Mat:

OUR GROUP PHOTO!!!

Yeah... I may be injured , but still can go for Karate-do combined training!

2005-08-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

Yeah,
Karate-Do combine training was at MMU 2 days ago and I went to give support :).
Well took part anyway as I wanted to learn something ;P.

I missed everyone and they missed me . It was good to see them and I made some new friends, though I didn't get to know them any better :P.
I was glad to go and got some nice photos but I'll only be posting 2 here :P.

Here they are and I'm the one in blue t-shirt.
I look bad now due to stress and the haze.

Yawn!!!! So sleepy, bored, sick, sad and whatever !!!!!

2005-07-13T00:49:00.000+08:00

Sigh....(why do I keep sighing?).

Anyway, yeah I'm so bored , sleepy, sad and what not.
So many assignments which I dunno how to start and I'm just so bored .
I'm sleey but can't seem to keep still . I want to draw but can't at the moment ...

Nevermind, must try and sleep now or I'll be cranky in the morning :(.

Very annoying furniture delivery .

2005-06-28T15:59:00.000+08:00

Well, for the past week , just to add to my bad day, the furniture guy whom was supposed to come last week is supposed to come today, but hasn't arrived and is pissed off with the mistake they made.
Maybe it's my mistake too, for being a night owl and a busy kid, but hey I'm just a kid.

If only he asked the guard that day to allow him to park in front of the Block B3 of Cyberia , maybe then this dillema could have been avoided.
Sigh...what to do, to wait for this guy I have to miss class again and I hope I don't have to wait too long or miss any more classes.

Sigh... sick again :(

2005-06-25T16:25:00.000+08:00

Well, I've only been in the apartment with my friends for two weeks and now, three of us are sick with fever and what not.

We're coping with class and assignments,but hopefully we won'tbe sick for long as it's really annoying :(.

Well that's all for now.
Here is the link for my other blog, where I put all my fanworks and hopefully some original work: http://enimarealm.blogspot.com/

A new cat.... Lia

2005-06-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

Well, this is something which I can't do at home.
On our way back from campus, my roommates and I brought back a kitten from the hostel block where I used to stay.
The cat had blue eyes, the fur was white and had ebony patches on its back and ears.
She was very cute but very thin. Since none could think of a name for name for her, I decided to call her, Lia, in the memory of Divine's(one of my roomies) cat, Leo and after my friend Lea from France whom I haven't seen since I was 8. I hope she's ok.

--- another charcter of mine. Darena in costume.

--- another new character , Zarner (also in costume).

Cool doll makers !!!

2005-06-22T05:20:00.000+08:00

Well, it was just today I discovered this little fun thing on my friend's website and had fun making little dolls with it :).
I made of Cloud and Aerith as well as of myself and an original character :).
Here is the url and for those whom stumble upon it, I recommend you guys to try it out :D as it's cool : http://elouai.com/doll-makers/candybar-doll-maker.php

Enjoy yourselves ;).

Here are the dolls I've made.
---> this is of Cloud and Aerith in formal wear and connected the pictures with Adobe Photoshop.

---> this is of me/ my character, Enima.

----> this is of my new character, Razer.

Sigh... the supp. result still isn't out :(

2005-06-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

Sigh... the results for the supplementary exam still isn't out , yet.
I wish it would hurry up and hopefully I passed.
But I already started going for classes and managed to get back some of my much loved assignments from the lecturers ;D .
Other than that, nothing special happened and everything seems ordinary.
Will have to appeal for credit transfer tomorrow as I couldn't today and yesterday.
That's all for now.

Sea Enigma signing out :), bye.

Wahhh... no... must not fail Supplementary!!!!

2005-06-19T18:43:00.000+08:00

Sigh... Back in MMU and can't get the timetable due to Supplementary exam :(.
Will have to pass it to get the timetable or repeat the whole year again :'(.

Well the exam is done, now I have to wait, but for how long?

I just found out my major and found that I got my second choice which was Virtual Reality. It's not so bad, but I really wish that I got Film and Animation. Well, since it's too late to appeal, might as well either take an extra subject or learn how to use the Maya software.

Langkawi trip, Malaysian Idol audition :) .

2005-05-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

Ok... I'm a little behind schedule but nevermind.
Anyway here are some pics of my time in Langakawi with my friends Nick,Rory,Eugene and Natalie ;3 . WE stayed at Awana Porto Malai resort and went to a couple of places
other than shopping ;).

We even went to Pulau Pinang on before me,Natalie, Nicholas and Eugene came bcak to KL.
It was an ok time and luckily we came back in time for the Malaysian Idol auditions.

During the audition I made a couple of friends and I wish I could see them again :(.

Oh and this is the link to our last English assignment as Alpha students (well my group's work and I give thanks to Divine, Evilectronic and Megatron as they did most of the work while I just did the report and the story editing :P) http://www.scream-online.cjb.net/

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Avon : 'ibuku, idolaku' sanjungi kasih ibu 27 April 2005

2005-04-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

Well, that day was a day when my mom and a four other working moms were given an award for different categories. Easy said that, the day was like a mother's tribute day before the real mother's day. My mom got the award for 'ibu kerjaya', Tun Dr. Siti Hasmah got an award for 'ibu idola', and the others (whom I can't remember the names) got awards for 'ibu komuniti', 'ibu seniman'(or something like that) and 'ibu ilmuan)(I can't remember this one either).

For each mother whom recieved an award, their eldest son or daughter had to give a speech or 'sajak' for them. As I was the eldest, I was chosen to read the 'sajak' eventhough they know I'd rather have sung than read :P. But really, I may look ok in the front but in my heart I didn't want to read it for my mom as eventhough I know she cares and such, she has a funny way of showing it as she scolds me more than usual since last time.

But nevermind, what's done is done. Each mother was presented with a trophy and a hamper along with a bouquet which had to be presented by the son or daughter whom gave a speech.

When it was my turn to go up before my mom recieved the award, I started of with a little speech and made the audience laugh before I read the 'sajak' then I waited to give the bouquet to mom. Mom cried as I handed to her the bouquet but I dunno whether they were real or false.

Enough said for now I guess, if not I'll be going on and on and on :P.
Here are some pictures of the event.

Oh yeah, I wore a green 'baju kurung' while my mom wore orange like my youngest sister and my dad along with my brother wore a suit. I even got to meet Tun Dr. Siti Hasmah in person and it so happens that she's in charge for MMU Cyberjaya, :D.
Even I got interviewed by some people and 'Kosmo!' newspaper may want to interview me and mom one day, too .

hahaha, finally made my first attempt :P

2005-04-12T15:36:00.000+08:00

Phew after delaying so long I've finally gotten down to make a wallpaper or something that should qualify as one. It turned out nice for a first time and I'm quite happy with it :) I hope all of you who stop by like it and I don't mind if you all use it :D.
I make to share :P.

Oh yeah and check out my japanese name :P :

My Japanese name is Arisa Arishima.
Take The Kawaii Japanese Name Generator by Shuichigami today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

Your Hidden Power Is Water

You have a rather calm soul, but when tempted
will get pissed off at those who bug you. You
do whatever you can in your powers to help
those of your allies and have a okay taste for
human kind, but you find them rather annoying
on occasions.

Gem Stone: Saphire, Eye Color:Ice
Blue,Hair Color:Dark Blue that's long
that goes to your waist.

Quote:If you wait for me
Then I'll come for you. Although I've travelled
far, I always hold a place for you
In my heart. If you think of me, If you miss me
once in a while, Then I'll return to you. I'll
return and fill that space in your heart

What Is Your True Hidden Power? .::Beautiful Anime Pics::.
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MMU Anime Week '05

2005-04-06T17:28:00.000+08:00

Hehe, sorry for taking so long to update this blog, was very busy with all sorts of matters :P.

Anyway, last last week, for the 24th-26th of March was MMU's very own ANIME WEEK !!!
It was held in the Multipurpose hall and people came from nearly all over Malaysia to be there. There was a Comic exhibit, booths selling anime products from Mangas to Anime merchandise, special guests which were artists from the Gempak magazine (Ben,Keith & Kaoru) and of course there were the cosplay and karaoke copetitions.

I went as Kaolla Su from 'Love Hina' but sadly as I was doing my routine, I fell and sprained my foot. But even so I continued it till the end. I was then rushed to the clinic and they bandaged it. Luckily they let me off so that I could still compete in the karaoke but as the last participant.

When I finally got back to the hall after explaining to my dad, it was break time and I found out that the song I wanted to sing wasn't in the song list so I requested to sing 'Watashi-tachi ni Naritakute' - Sailormoon season 4 ending theme.

After that was done there was the guest performers which sang a series of anime soundtrack songs.

Before the prize-giving ceremony there was a lucky draw.

It was very funny the way the guy talked as he selected people to answer his question ( his accent really drove me nuts).

Anyway, for the group category , the group named 'Bleach vs RO' won first prize whereas the girl whom dressed as Chi from Chobits won the single category.

I was given the greatest surprise in my life when they called my name as the winner of the Karaoke competition !!!

It was a great experince and I know that next time there's an anime convention I'll have a better costume. Other than that, I gained a great number of new friends and I wish them all the best along with my thanx for taking care of me that day :D .

The MMU E-nite

2005-03-17T10:39:00.000+08:00

There was an E-nite last-last weekend, but only now, I'm posting it in the blog :P .
Anyway, it was quite enjoyable and therer were a lot of guest artists. Most importantly I've made new friends :) :D .

check this out and have fun :).
http://www.neopets.com/refer.phtml?username=digi_monsters

The MMU Wushu Intergretion Day 2005

2005-03-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was the Multimedia University Cyberjaya Wushu Intergretion Day 2005 . It was on the Sunday of February 27th. Many were present on that day including Wushu representatives from a hih school and Wushu Cooperation of Melaka & Selangor.

It was a fun , yet tiring day and we all made new friends. :)
Here are some pictures and there are also some of when my brother brought home a japanese exchange student to our home when there was a student exchange program at his school.

I am Kung Fu Master.

I like to be in control of myself. I dislike crowds, especially crowds containing people trying to kill me. Even though I always win, I prefer to avoid fights if possible. What Video Game Character Are You?

My Family trip to Bali

2005-02-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

Ok, during the Chinese New Year Holidays ( which was only for a week <_< ) my parents dragged me to Bali , Indonesia. Honestly I didn't wanna go but since my mom had already bought tickets and made reservations I had no choice but to go. I went with my parents along with my siblings , my cousins with their parents and my grandmother who stayed at the resort most of the time while we went shopping :P :D .

It was very humid there and evryone got a tan whereas my brother got sick. It was enjoyable but eventhough when snorkling with my cousin and my mom, we had to battle through endless garbage in the clear water, it was a cool experience :) .

RO Carnival at Midvalley Megamall !!!! :)

2005-01-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today there was a Ragnarok Online fair at Midvalley Megamall !!! it was awesome, better than the Anime Fest last year :) . There were alot of games, merchandise to be won or bought and competitions to join (which me , my brother and some freinds weren't ready for apparently :( ) .

Anyway I enjoyed myself and bought stuff which interested me, while my brother went on a game and shopping spree :D :P :) . I even met my classmate Calvin there but he went to meet his old freinds and Sue Win his girlfrirend ( my classmate, too ) was sick the poor thing .

Eeks, I just realised I haven't taken today's dose of medication which the doctor prescribed me. Hopefully i don't forget again.

Well I just joined photobucket.com and have uploaded three photoes so far but will have more in there in due time :) .
the url : http://photobucket.com/albums/v238/sea_enigma/

(hope I got it right)

Besides all that I have to train diligently to prepare for a swimming carnival as I'll be participating and helping out at the same time.

That's all for now :) .

It's a new year, but a sad one.

2005-01-02T22:45:00.000+08:00

It's a new year, but it doesn't feel very grand because of all the disaster going around nowadays.
All my prayers go to the victims and I hope that this tragedy will end soon. It's very sad as loved ones suffer and lose more than their homes.
May the ones whom passed on and those who suffer be protected.

Your Aeris! You are a very caring and mysteries
girl. You always worry about your loved ones.
At first glance people might think that your a
happy girl with no worries but deep down inside
you are a confused individual. Believe in
yourself more, then you will conquer all.

Which Female Character from Final Fantasy Vii Are You?
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My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Final Fantasy 7, is Aeris

Sora

Which Kingdom Hearts Character are You Most Like?
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SeaEnigma's Place

2004-12-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

This is my first time using this blogger so I'm not really used to it yet. But will eventually keep on trying.

Take the quiz: "Which Final Fantasy X-2 Character Are You?"

Yuna
You are the kind ex-summoner, Yuna. After saving Spira once you now set out to find an old friend, but you may have to come to Spira's aid once more.

2004-12-22T17:02:00.000+08:00

Another Cloud and Aerith picture I created. It, too was originally a drawing till I decided to colour it first with colour pencil then water colour.

2004-12-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

A picture of Cloud and Aerith as mermaids. It was originally drawn but painted with water colour and edited a little on the pc.